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ik its annoying to hear the advice âyoga will cure your depressionâ but the thing is that closing your eyes and focusing on your breathing and moving your body a bit in a way thats not punishing (like doing cardio) or meant to build up sweat necessarily, but instead moving it in an understanding way and only pushing yourself until its comfortable does help. Like I sometimes forget too but when getting depressed taking care of the very basics, like breathing, drinking enough water, eating enough and well, cleaning my body and yes moving at least a little are SO important. And after a while sure you might enjoy other more âpunishingâ or sweaty things but they are an acquired taste.
same goes for the touch grass advice tbh. or the go outside one. does not have to be a specific place just go somewhere where there is something green and some air. go stand under a tree on the street where your apartment is or some shit. bc its not about the place itself or being outside necessarily but instead not spending all your time in a small consigned space and about looking at something green. taking your mind off of whatever is bouncing around in there and just look at a plant. its good i prommy and it does not have to be structured
#quenthel special#ever since i started realizing im nb i started to think more abt my body as part of myself rather than something i simply inhabit#i said this before but its helping me a lot to learn how to love myself better eventho im struggling incredibly hard#but i think anyone who is struggling to like their body should listen to old people and trans people and people who#dont fit the current beauty standards talk about their body and desire and what they do with their body or how#and how they talk about their body too... it puts things into perspective#also dark souls is making me think abt bodies too and my body too...#my transgender dark souls article in the making in my own head but#i wont post it bc it would be way too revealing... more revealing than my personal posts where i just ramble#also the new dunmeshi chapter... made me think abt this too.. doing stuff that hurts at first or is very uncomfortable etc.. its important#kind of eased my gate opening crisis too that im experiencing rn
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How are sheith shippers fetishizing gay men. Are you delusional? Misinformed? Lacking IQ?
Keith is not Asian btw, While we're at it, please prove to me all the damage sheith has done to the gay Asian male community.
Ok considering i have sheith shippers/defenders dni in my intro post and I really dont feel like wasting my time today ill try to keep it short and wont be responding to shit like this down the line. Next time save your breath though. Because idk if you knew this but dni stands for Do Not Interact. You are interacting. Stop that.
1) theyâre brothers. Sure itâs revealed much later in the seasons, but the point is they have an incredibly strong familial relationship. If you started off shipping sheith when they werenât explicitly defined as brothers, fine. But after their familial relationship is revealed the choice to continue shipping those two specifically comes off as strange as hell. Even stranger when you consider the multiple other available male characters that are not only more age appropriate but also dont have a familial relationship with them lmao. Also Shiro canonically gets married to a man. So the choice to continue shipping sheith has to go beyond just wanting to guys to kiss. The next common denominator? Theyâre both asian, so I must conclude that the need to ship them comes from that. The next next common denominator is that theyâre related and some of you just have a thing for incest. But i still have faith in humanity so i wont accuse you of that even though i occasionally feel the urge to. I refuse to take âbut but they have the most in show relationship developmentâ as a reason because that just means youâre too fucking lazy to think of your own scenarios. Which is not true, because the amount of devious ass sheith shit I unfortunately stumble across means your collective neurons are actively firing away. Just for the wrong thing. You guys really saw the only real developed relationship (i use this word generally and not strictly romantically) between two guys in the show and decided that it must have romantic undertones. Beyond how its harmful to irl men and deters them from emotional maturity out of fear that any non toxic relationship between two men is automatically seen as romantic by some people, itâs just fundamentally mid yaoi because you guys cant fathom that 1) romance isnât a core part of the show beyond allurance 2) that two guys can talk to eachother while smiling without wanting to fuck. Yall are in the same league as those guys who are addicted to step sister p0rn.
1.5) bcs i know someones gonna ask âwhy do you think sheith is incestâ, its because shiro fulfills the kinship role of âsiblingâ for keith, or even âparentâ. From here-on out simplified as âguardianâ. Within anthropology there are numerous kinship systems which determine which family member is called what. Ex. In the hawaiian system, every male family member is called âfatherâ and every female âmotherâ. No matter if they birthed you or not. In the linear (also known as esk/mo but thatâs a word with heavy history) system, your parents are âmom/dadâ, siblings are defined as âbrother/sisterâ, and everyone else is âaunt/uncleâ or âcousinâ. This is the system commonly used in the west. Kinship systems define a lot of things, from inheritance to respect hierarchies. Another key thing they determine is incest taboo. The range of which this taboo applies differs depending on culture, which is why youâll hear of two people, for example, cousins getting married. In the west thatâs considered taboo, but it may not be in another culture. Kinship and its taboos also apply to non blood related relationships. Hence adoptive siblings, etc. And keith quite explicitly refers to shiro as his brother. Given the context of those scenes, it can be deduced that itâs not said in a way that is 1) casual, as the lingo would more likely be âsup broâ or the tone of voice would be significantly more casual, 2) indicative of anything other than a familial relationship, for if keith considered him a brother in arms he wouldâve said something more along the lines up âon your feet, brotherâ. Keith saying âyouâre like my brotherâ AND THEN DOUBLING DOWN TO âYouâre my brother,â said in such a sincere tone of voice leaves little to be debated.
Tldr: Shiro fulfills a guardian kinship role for Keith and thus the incest taboo applies to him.
1.6) also like? Itâd be weird either way. Going by their canon age diff (season 1, 25-18 = SEVEN YEARS), and considering shiro met keith in middle school, and going by the oldest middle school age (15) bcs im feeling generous, shiro wouldve still been 22. If they just met once and never again till seasom 1, fine. Ship sheith however you want. But the fact is they met and then they formed a bond when shiro was significantly older and in a position of power over keith. Shiro was a mentor and guardian to keith whether you like it or not, and he stayed that way from when keith was young and impressionable until he was an adult. Yk what thats called? Raising a child. Imagine shipping that. Crazy. Imagine a 9 year old being raised by a 17 year old babysitter bcs of his absent parents. Suddenly when the 9 year old turns 18 he starts dating his babysitter. Thats freaky as hell, and i only increased the age gap by 2 years. Literally nothing else changed.
2) now why would they include a non aapi character in the mash up? Also, his source character from the og voltron is named âKeith Akira Koganeâ. What non asian person is named that?
3) also the fact you need me to show you damage.. same vibe as âwdym heâs stalking you heâs just being friendly!! Show me how his so called stalking has put your life in dangerâ. Like imagine needing actual damage before even considering something bad.
#I HATE SHEITH#sheith shippers DNI#voltron#voltron legendary defender#hot take#sheith is gross you guys need actual help
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pass2 ramble ab/share your headcanons ab your favs đđâď¸âď¸âď¸
you have unleashed the visty paralive demons >:). cracks knuckles. this is long as hell so under a readmore it goes!!
shogo:
with the little amount of sleep + insomnia this guy has his ass should def be close to if not already having a caffeine addiction. however i think he eats enough sugar regularly for it to balance out
adding on to that this guy cannot drink black coffee. idc if canon says anything different. he wont drink it unless its almost just milk
a journal hoarder. i do think he actually uses all of them eventually but he always has like. 2 empty ones somehow.
had one of those 3 am cut + dye your hair breakdowns as a teenager. it was when he was 15 and literally the night before he retired from the film industry bc his hair looked like his dad's at the time and he was one interview away from snapping on camera
touma
yknow those tiktoks where its someone with a 35+ step facial care/night routine. yea thats touma
she's transfem also. to me. for silly reasons its bc theres no women inthis goddamn franchise and touma's my highest fave who isnt already trans/transcoded
for serious reasons i do think that it could connect to what we have revealed of her trauma
stocks up and has a stash of cosmetic store coupons that she spends all at once after exam season
her hair is sooooo soft despite the fact its been bleached to hell and back. touma tell me ur secrets please
kantarou
i've said this before but has enough phone + backpack charms to use that shit like a warhammer
has a tumblr acc argue w the wall. kenta has one too to me and i just knwo the two would be in each others dnis
is barely in touch w his parents bc of their work. however he tries to keep in touch w his grandma consistently even after moving in the the visty living situation (he gets her free tickets to shows!)
was super homesick after he first joined visty and had to move in together like it was bad
not a hc but i am obsessed with how he lies about his least favorite foods. "[dislikes] Tapioca (he hates the way it looks), but if you ask him, he'll say it's green peppers" there's something so wrong w him
aoi:
if they were to ever play bandori they would attach themself to kaoru seta like a duckling to its mother. kin assignment style even
surprisingly good at carnival/crane games!
aroacespec. to me. yes i know their whole schtick is how they want to be a prince and the inherent romance that comes w that however. they are my favorite and hence get my arospec isms. i like to think that despite not actually being attracted to anybody, acting out that prince role still gives them that gender euphoria
also canonically a journaler but is more organized about it than shogo
was briefly living w their aunt before joining visty due to their relationship w their parents getting strained
groups hcs time
everytime visty has a movie night aoi/kantarou/touma like. thoroughly checks the cast list + directing credits bc early in the tradition there was a yamatodad feature jumpscare and then shogo spent the next 2 hours in the bathroom
they have matching friendship bracelets! kei had one too so when he left they had to remake them so there would be that constant reminder (they all still keep the old ones somewhere tho. even kei)
shogo and aoi watch cooking/baking shows together and try to replicate their favorite recipes
i am a kantaaoi besties no 1 supporter. like ive said this in another post but i donât think they had anyone their age that they were super close to before each other
they do hair dye touchup livestreams
#the solo hcs ended up being long too oop....welll whatever ive yapped for longer in the prri tag#inbox mail#pastellmochi#sal đĄ#paradox live#paralive#visty posting#visty#shogo yamato#touma hikage#kantarou misuji#aoi kureha
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hey nivi! i've read GH since the beginning and always look forward to bookclub reviews so i thought i'd write my own since ive been suffering for 42 days without a new chapter đ
heartbreaking to see the moment paige's hope gets crushed. like why was i hoping azzi would show up in that moment... unrealistic bc you like to break our hearts sm
WE NEED TO KNOW THE DETAILS OF THE BREAKUP RNNN i feel like azzi had good reason to be hesitant but its killing me that we dont know what. the miscommunication angst is gonna go crazy
Drew doesnât really remember Paige without Azzi- doesnât remember a time before his sister knew how to heal without the brunetteâs touch HELPPPP their breakup def shattered his perception of love
Because Drew and Paige are cut from the same material and letting Azzi into the folds seems to just come naturally to both of them. rly giving me hope that everything was gonna be okay.. when is drew gonna come around đ im wondering if paige ever explained why they broke up
âI wonât let it happen again.â i fear drew is not gonna let it slide this time.. i can sense the obstacles its gonna take for them to be together again
i love when paige calls azzi baby.
i dont know why i was surprised but it makes sense that paige hasn't forgiven azzi yet. im curious to see if paige truly knows azzis reasoning for saying no. maybe if they have that conversation later and azzi reveals why she did it then paige might have clarity and forgive her so they can move on
âI know what she deserves. I think I know whatâs good for my daughter,â Azzi says steely and Paige feels something cold squeezing through her ribcage, âno soda Stephie. End of discussion.â guys i dont think this is about soda.. i think this is the beginning of azzi pulling away and realizing how much paige has attached herself to their life and its scaring her
âwhat are you gonna do when she walks away again? When she lets you go again, what are you gonna do Paige?â if azzi overheard this i hope she takes it as motivation to reassure paige she wont leave instead of running away again. in her head she probably thinks that leaving sooner rather than later is the best choice but the only real choice is to STAY!!!
"Paige feels the blood drain out of her body as she slowly turns around to find Stephie and Azzi -their faces ashen with identical expressions of betrayal- staring at her. " earth shattering. stephie finding out this way was heartbreakingggg. i thought that paige could stay if she wanted to though i think this could be worked through but in this moment everyone is so heated and azzi and stephie are definitely thinking the worst things rn NIVI FIX THIS!! i think everyone just needs to talk it out and take small steps to forgive each other.
anyways thank you so much nivi for writing the best pazzi series ive ever read. it is always the light of my day, week, and month when you post. im so excited to see how this plays out i am craving moree. but take your time i will be right here when you are ready to release the next chapter
love,
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Hello hello friend, welcome to book club!
It would just be too simple if she had shown up and I like to keep things a little....complex shall we say.
I think Azzi's reason were valid but perhaps not the greatest execution. I'm very excited to eventually go into her POV about it and keen to see how y'all respond to that.
Drew's worldview was changed by the breakup and now he's very guarded about himself and his sister.
Interesting theories :)
I really like seeing y'alls responses because I think y'all might be surprised by how I eventually decide write things out in comparison to what y'all are expecting but it also helps me add a little bit to what I'm already planning.
Thank YOU so much my love for reading and taking the time to give me your thoughts, that's always so very appreciated.
#ask#fic talk#notes time with nivi đ
đ˝#đđ anon my new angel <3#ugh i love how much bookclub has grown
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What are your thoughts on each Monogatari season?
ok this will end up long... (like really fucking long holy shit lol) im gonna go from first - monster season (which is the light novels), so only read up to where youve seen. mostly only vague discussion of spoilers but still. ill put the individual parts of each season too for reference, in the order i watched and try to go over them briefly since i feel like you cant talk about the whole of the seasons without touching on the parts
first (kizu, bake, nise, neko black) - the kizu movies are so good!!!!!! i like them more and more as time goes on theyre like a fine wine. captures the vibe of a sort of proto-monogatari monogatari very well. it might just b because i watched it in this order but this is honestly my recommended order to watch the series. idk maybe you lose something from not seeing how mysterious shinobu is in bake and then getting the big reveal. bake - nice and airtight. very cool and classic vibes here, very nostalgic. cool introductions to all these cool fun characters while also giving them arcs that are resolved except nadekos but yeah. and of course this one has the very unique art direction thats super cool nise - just had a post about this so go look at that if you want my thoughts. drops a big theme that keeps getting developed which is the kinda important thing u gotta be doing during a season called the "first season" lol neko black - ehhh i think this is one of the worst ones of the anime entries. its not bad. i like the op a lot overall extremely nostalgic and very high quality, especially with kizu and nise in my mind. a bit of a bump with neko black but a very strong start in general. the first season offers much room for the themes and characters to grow but also stands well on its own. so it does its job well. (also note im not gonna be talkin about like the ost too much here just bc. i love all of it so much. its exclusively good.)
second season (neko white, kabuki, otori, oni, koi, hana) - season full of bangers lets go! neko white is the wonderful resolution to the buildup of hanekawa's character we'd been getting since the first season. very good kabuki is interesting... but definitely not the strongest entry here otorimonogatari is what originally hooked me once and for all on the series, for reasons ive explained before so i wont get into that too much here. but god do i love it to death. whew its good oni could hit much harder than it does but it doesnt. rip. still not what id call bad but eh koi is fuckin awesome. kaiki and nadeko... i'd talk more at length about certain parts i like but im writing this backwards from the later seasons to the earlier ones and i talked way too much about the later ones so im trying to conserve space here. i might talk about it more later or if someone asks me abt it hana i have talked about a bit before too but i love hana hanas great. so then all in all it's like 4 bangers. a great development of the characters we know and love and one that is so well written and just done in the best ways... i loved where this season took everyone. i think the non chronological stuff can be a hit or miss for ppl but i honestly really like it, especially on rewatches. when you think about it the order never feels pointless. even tho hana is chronologically after all the other anime arcs its still not at all something i would say you should watch after zoku lmao. the season does well as a continuation and development but not a conclusion to the series, and thus spendidly fits the role of "second" season.
final season (tsuki, owari part 1, koyomi, owari ge, zoku) - there are ups and downs to this season, but the ups far, FAR outweigh the downs. owari part one... its really good. i think shinobu mail (thats what its called right?) is like kind of slow at first, and i definitely wasnt SUPER invested in it on my first watch, but i think on a rewatch after you get past the first like episode or two it really starts to pick up and shine. that is not why i like it though ougi formula to sodachi lost is incredibly fucking good all the way through, some of the strongest entries in the series by far. i might do like a ranking of each part sometimes and those are definitely going in s tier when i do (even nisioisin said his favorite anime part was ougi formula in an interview although that might just be because he loves mysteries lol). hooooghhh those three arcs,, sodachis story is revealed and developed very wonderfully and impactfully and you kinda love her right from her return to the school where she screams at araragi. and of course, of COURSE ougi is the absolute goat in these arcs, revealing the mystery in the engaging and entertaining way she tends to while also being an incredible point of intrigue herself in her whole enigmatic shtick. and of course, if you know you know, but that doesnt make it any less enjoyable on rewatches ougi is just that entertaining of a character. not to mention her showdown with hanekawa... its so entertaining to see these two battle so passive aggressively or just plain aggressively. and the way it ends up is not surprising but it IS hilarious. and then the convo with sodachi in her apartment... heartwrenching, incredible. all of its very very good. probably some of the most fun ive had watching anime, these three arcs grab you and youre just along for the ride the whole time. i'd love to talk about it more in depth some other time probably FUCK that was just owari part one too koyomi we can go through quickly though. its just like a sorta reminder of where each character started and ended up, as well as giving a few details to set up owari ge. nothing special or bad. i love the ED tho oh fuck are you gonna make me scream about owari ge... this post is already way too long fuck... uhh basically mayoi hell + hitagi rendevous are great in and of themselves and are also wonderful buildups to ougi dark and the conclusion of the series. its so fun how it sneaks up on you that yes, ougi is the main antagonist (at least from second season - final). ougi dark................. ougi dark..... ougi dark. yeah ill save this for a different post. um, one billion out of ten? i literally think about it every day thats not a joke so i dont think i can talk about it here without running out of space (do posts have word limits?? whatever its too long already anyway) overall a very tight and absolutely wonderful conclusion to the series. in my mind this is like the "actual ending" and the light novels and other stuff that comes after is like bonus epilogue stuff (not that its not canon its just that ougi dark is too solid of an ending. its TOO good do you understand)
and now time for the light novels
off season - i think in general this season is pretty strong. i was pretty invested in how it was really taking the time to give characters other than araragi the focus, at least until musubi. but even in musubi its sort of like a "where are they now?" so we get lots of details about all the characters. although i think in musubi its a little hard to read bc we also get all these new characters that we dont necessarily care about (esp since its very much like a one-off thing), but i dont mind it that much because thats not what i like it for... the cool part is seeing the characters we love and where theyve ended up and where theyre going. like the part in (i think) mitome wolf? where hanekawa and araragi have drifted super far apart... wonderfully bittersweet. and i have a separate post about this but seeing ougi free and unable to be bothered in their new life? chefs kiss wonderful love it. so i think even though musubi breaks the format of taking a break from araragi, its still good enough to not bring down off season really. and on that note i honestly wish monster season would be more like off season. i dont really want to see stinky araragi's pov anymore! i think he should take way more of a backseat and instead make more guest appearances in other people's stories, like he did at the end of hanamonogatari. not that i dont like him (its a hate love relationship) but i think honestly hes really interesting in hana where we see kanbaru's view of him instead of his view of everyone else as usual. i love so much how the monogatari series Feels Different in different people's perspectives so i want to switch it up more!! of course he is the main character so i dont think this will happen but like. i'd much rather get kanbaru's misadventures with ougi than araragi's college misadventures. and of course i cant talk about off season without talking about nademonogatari. nademonogatari is SO FUCKING GOOD holy shit... i think i speak for a lot of people when i say nadeko is by far the strongest narrator in the series due to her arc's progression and her character development-- and even before it too, cuz otorimonogatari's narration was also really unique and engaging. it helps that she's my second fav but i think nademonogatari is generally well liked? and for very good reason. which is also why...
monster season - haven't finished these season still have to read ougi fright/flight and the next installment but yeah i feel a lil disappointed in this season because again... too much araragi. get this dirty stinky man outta my face. again i love and hate the guy but cmon let's be real... his peak was in owari ge and zoku and at the end of hana. i really dont feel the need to see more of him. of course the stories themselves are interesting and i like nisioisin's writing but i just find the stuff thats not narrated by him such a breath of fresh air... i really want to see more nadeko and kanbaru narration. i hope nisioisin, if he keeps on trucking through the series, will start putting more real focus on these two. or even like. just anyone else. give us ononoki again give us sodachi again. i want to see the other characters journeys!!!! we keep getting small little nadeko chapters like with mayoi snake and yotsugi shadow and like... those were awesome i loved those! more of that but longer please nisioisin!!! i feel like raising up kanbaru or nadeko more to the status of "mains" would be honestly really refreshing and a much better, less like.... stagnating? direction to take the series in ummmmm also nisioisin isnt writing about ougi enough ://// like... hellooo? ougi pov chapter when?? itd be the most fun thing ever nisioisin???? hello??????? hes so insistent on not writing them i swear he wants to relegate them to a side character spooky appearance every once in a while and thats cool but like im starving here dude cmon... even in the book named after them they dont get a pov chapter and only appear as a side character.... wtf........................... like thats so fucked up.................................................. especially since the parts where they acc were there were rly good :( but basically araragi stinky i want to cleanse my nose palette please PLEASE nisioisin throw him in the trash for a long while longer im begging you it'd be so much more interesting if you just let him become a side character his days in the sun should be OVER
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i keep seeing it around so while i havent gotten all shrines myself yet (bc i havent felt motivated to play atm) im absolutely sure that weird armor is supposed to be the hero from the tapestry and its supposed to be a mix of hylians and zonau .. i guess its confirmed then that rauru and sonia had kids, somehwere off screen in the background dw they couldnt be important to anything lmao, and that the ancient hero was half zonau (shouldnt it be the princess tho- or cant we have a weird looking zelda ..?) and i
i know i have annoying opinions about this game to hell and back and i might be the only one who keeps finding things to be annoying about but-
the ancient hero being yet again connected to the zonau just ... ugh, i dont like it; not just bc its a very lackluster reveal to a neat mystery that in my eyes didnt need solving (it was cool to theorize about it being ganondorf but that aint possible now that we know what happens in totk...) but it makes it all feel even more like ... an after thought? like, you got the old tapestry from that time still and while a lot of history was lost (or destroyed really) about the ancient shiekah .. why would the zonau be just completely forgotten when theres living evidence and people descended from them still there back in those ancient shiekah days and you are telling me know one knew they actually existed? and how did their genetics get compeltely wiped out like that? since sonia mentions that our zelda has both time and light magic it kinda directly implies one of her ancestors must have been one of those half zonaus
like yeah 10 000 years is a long ass time and if you keep mixing it with hylian genes it will end up pretty unrecognizable, but that still just kinda ... there must have been many weird middle stages of that, and no one thoguht to mention the strange looking hylians, however many there were? ESPECIALLY considering it must have been the royal family but then why did the princess on the tapestry look like her perfect princessy self and the hero whos more often than not unrelated to them was one of the half zonau? did sonia have more family that took over the ruling instead of her kids and the royal family was without zonau genes for the longest time until it somehow intermingled at some point before botw? how boring is it to have that be a thing and then not let a single feature of them survive? no tiny horns? no slightly strange anatomy? no a little toooo big ears? not even skin color? (ironically ganondorf skintone is the closest to the zonau lmao)
my questions really dont need answering im just throwing my brain farts onto this website bc i wont be hunted for sport here and can actually write it all out in one post; i really feels like they saw any mystery as something they could cram zonau stuff into when it was really just a neat thing added in botw to make the world feel more believable, yeah any old world with such a long history would have some mysteries that can never get solved, some ancient remains that are remnants of a time long past and forgotten, the fact that you cannot go back in time to ask is such a big part of what makes a good mystery so interesting, that longing for knowledge you can never obtain- and they answered it all in the most boring way possible, yeah look im gonna show you the last two of them in very much enclosed and non recognozable environments and tell you about how who it was and they had everything, invented everythign and were the bestest and coolest and have been everywhere before you, theres nothing they havent done before you did, but also they just all died out for unknown reasons and never bother to tell you anything that isnt look how bad the bad guy is we were too dumb to stop despite you literally talking to the last of them and running around with them in a robot next to you
like i get im bad at words so im probably not gonna get my point across but its just so ... unsatisfying, every mystery from botw being solved by just ... yo it was the cool zonau guys, every single time is so ... way to make me care less about this world that i cared so much about
dont get me wrong i loved theorizing about who they were and all the unsolved stuff but thats exactly my point, its fun to think about the possibilities knowing and not even wanting anything confirmed to be a certain way bc its more fun to think about the what ifs than get told thats how it was
all the questions that remain are really just .. logical questions that either dont have an answer that makes it work or just make it worse, why the heck did the oh so godly zonau die out and never mention anything of it, if they really came from the sky originally why is so much of their culture inspired by underground stuff (light seeds/ferns- construct design beign inspired by gigama), why did no one every bother to mention the weird half zonau people in all the ancient texts, how did all that stuff get lost so badly when no one campaigned to destroy their memory and descdendants of them still ran around, whats with all the continutiy problems to botw-
its the unfun kind of plotholes that really make this game much less fun to me, despite gameplay and music being so good
i guess this game hit my limit of their gameplay over story ways
got visually spoiled on the literally last thing i was still actively missing and working towards in totk but i dont think im gonna like it anyway ...
if it is what i think it is, and what it looks like to be, its just yet another nail in the coffin (or however you say that) as to why the lore sucks in this game even tho it had such good setup and so much potential
#ganondoodles talks#ganondoodles rants#that tag makes more sense#totk spoilers#at this point i have accepted that totk is a zelda game i do not like and will mostly try to ignore#but it still hurts having cared so much about botw#and everyone else talking only about that new one for years to come in utter adoration#feels like there are like 3 other people in my bubble that dare critize totks story and lore#i did lower my expectations for this game and prepared everything i loved be trampelt over but SOMEHOW it did it in a way i did not expect#ww and botw are my two favs#getting a sequel to botw was so so exciting with how much potential the first one had and setup#and then all of it to be discarded in the way it did just to make room for more boring stuff and have all mystery be just ..that too#well ... there are things that even the greatest msuic and ganondorf cant save#im sorry baby ;__;#it all would have been a nigh non problem if you didnt call it a sequel ...#anyway im gonna ignore pretty much everything about totk except for gan- the music-the yiga and some tiny design elements#and i will rant less i promise#but the pain of disappointment and lost potential will take a while to fade .. if it ever will#look this took me an hours to write and got longer than i thoguht ... again#wait also the only thing i care about featuring rauru is him getting shipped with ganondorf like bitter exes#that alone gives the game more nuance than nintendo even knows what to do with lmao
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queen of broken hearts. jjk (m) part two.
Block my posts and my stories, Iâm sorry I can be annoying, I go ghost without warning.
part one. part three.
pairing: jungkook x reader genre: smut, heavy angst word count: 6k warnings: jungkook is still in lurv and oc is still a toxic bitch, mentions of infidelity, oral (m receiving), explicit photos being taken after said blowjob, jungkook cries a little but reverse uno cards oc ha authorâs note: this was definitely not supposed to get a second part but for some reason i just couldnât stop writing it so here it is. i might make a few more drabbles bc i like writing this toxic ass relationship but who knows lmk what u think byeeee
A frown is etched onto Jungkookâs face as he eyes his phone, his thumb constantly dragging the screen down until the loading circle appears and shows him the same screen thats been haunting him all day.Â
No posts yet.Â
That same line has him morbidly smiling to himself, how could you have no posts yet when he had just liked a selfie of your last night?Â
Your profile picture in the top left corner mocks him, a mirror photo you took in a room he was all too familiar with. A room he hadnât been inside of in over two weeks, which was a long time considering you usually called him over every other day.Â
And now he was apparently blocked.
Jungkook racks his brain for anything he couldâve done, any words he might have let slip out in the throes of passion the last time he had seen you, but he comes up blank. He had done a good job so far keeping his emotions locked up and tucked away, never letting anything more slip out since he first met you years ago.Â
Sure when heâs in the moment he absolutely wants to spill his heart out, serve it on a silver platter for you and hope its to your liking, but once the heat of itâs all gone and his mind settles he realizes that he missed his chance. His window of opportunity was long gone, the relationship you had now was too twisted, tangled up like roots of a tree that were running rampant, jutting up between the cracks of Jungkookâs sanity.Â
Back when you first met, being the older sister of the boy he was tutoring, he had no idea that this was what would become of it. You took a liking to him instantly like a lioness latching onto her prey, something new and exciting for you to play with before you took a bite out of him.Â
He was attractive that much was obvious, his hair was shorter then, giving him a slightly boyish charm that didnât match his physique of broad shoulders and slim waist, his thick thighs stretching out his jeans in such a delicious way that made your mouth water.Â
He noticed instantly when youâd linger around the kitchen while he was busy teaching your brother about the pythagorean theorem, mocking him in your low cut tops and tiny lounging shorts, offering him a popsicle as you suckled on one right in front of him. A giant flashing sign hanging over your head that showed him your intentions, showed him just what you were after when it came to him, and he walked right into it.Â
Jungkook wasnât inexperienced, having far too many notches on his bed post to explain why he was so god damn intimidated by you, so enamored by a girl who was clearly as cold as the ice pop you were making a show of sucking.Â
You were filthy and shameless, turning the charm off the second your parents walked in or your brother turned around when he noticed Jungkook was distracted. The second anyone else became aware youâd tug your shirt up and your shorts down, giving your father a smile so sweet it would rot Jungkookâs teeth if he didnât know the act behind it all.Â
Jungkook still doesnât know if heâs thankful for the chain of events that lead to you two sleeping together for the first time, he doesnât know if heâd take it all back to save himself the torment his heart was currently going through.Â
Would he have changed his course of action? Chosen to leave immediately after tutoring your brother instead of running up to the bathroom before leaving?Â
You werenât even on his mind then, you had been taunting him earlier but after fifteen minutes you retreated into your room, leaving him to focus entirely on being the tutor your parents were paying him good money to be.Â
So when he pushes the bathroom door open and sees you standing absolutely naked with your wet hair dripping down your body and not an ounce of embarrassment written on your face, he doesnât even realize heâs shut the door behind him until he hears the soft click of the lock.Â
You had been loosely planning this all day, hoping heâd end up in your room, but when you heard him trekking up the stairs and towards the bathroom you yanked off your towel and unlocked the door in record time, a tiny oops leaving your mouth when you see his wide eyes.Â
Jungkook groans into his palms now as he recalls it, how he had taken you on top of your bathroom counter, knocking over the toothbrush holder and soap onto the floor in a loud clatter, the way you had refused to kiss him during it even then, choosing to suck hickeys onto his neck to muffle your cries of pleasure as he stretched you open.Â
He still remembers the guilt he felt when he exited the bathroom and said goodbye to your brother as if he hadnât just fucked you raw inside your bathroom when you two had barely spoken a word to each other.Â
Jungkook shouldâve spoken up then, right at the beginning of this all, but instead he let his dick control everything, allowing this to continue.Â
You had no complaints, getting dicked down by a man as beautiful as Jungkook with no strings attached was god sent, choosing to keep him around even as he stopped tutoring your brother, even after you moved out of your parentsâ house and into a place of your own.Â
Jungkook felt the first spark of hope in his chest at you keeping him around, the possibility that maybe this was more than just sex, more than a quick fix. But then he started noticing the texts to your phone that youâd get while he was balls deep inside of you, different boys with different hearts lined up at the end of it. Thats when he began trying to convince himself that he was just confused about his feelings, that all of this was just lust.Â
He was wrong. Obviously.Â
If all he felt was lust he wouldnât be so upset over being blocked from your instagram. It wasnât even as if you two interacted on the app, never dming each other, youâd occasionally like the thirst trap gym photos heâd post just to get your attention whereas heâd like every single post of yours.Â
His finger hovers over your contact name now, opening up your thread of messages and seeing the last one being from him two weeks ago. A simple âiâm outsideâ text after you had invited him over.Â
His digits swirl on top of the screen, desperate to shoot you a text, wanting to come across as casual in asking why you blocked him but how could he ask that without exposing that he frequently checked your page.
âNo.â He grumbles under his breath, carding his fingers through his long hair and choosing to text his friends instead. An invitation to meet at a diner near by for some greasy food and good conversation, something Jungkook desperately needed right now.Â
Taehyung and Jimin donât know about you, none of his friends do so when they push through the entrance of Melâs and he spots the reason for his distraught emotions he canât even explain to his friends why they need to sit at the furthest booth from you.Â
You donât spot him, you were too busy staring at the boy in front of you with heart eyes he wishes could be aimed at him. A straw is between your teeth as you slurp on your milkshake, covering your mouth to laugh loudly at something the purple haired boy said.Â
It only irritates him further, his fingers gripping the edges of the menu so hard they pale in color. He knew this was the boy that had text you last time, the purple hearts matching the color of his hair perfectly. Was this why you had blocked him?
âYou alright?â Taehyung speaks up, noticing the turmoil brewing on his friendâs face, the way his brows were pinched together, the indent on his forehead deepening every time your laugh filled the diner.Â
âYeah.â Jungkook breathes, hoping the simple lie sounds more believable out in the open than in his head. He sets the menu down with care, trying to shake the feeling inside of him before it spread throughout him, morphing into something ugly and green. You didnât owe him anything, he tells himself, you could do whatever you wanted.Â
Jimin eyes him carefully, catches on to the way he continues to glance at the corner of the room every now and then. His curiosity gets the best of him so he turns to look over his shoulder and spots you, and you must sense the attention because your eyes move from the purple haired boy over to Jungkookâs booth. Jimin instantly turns around at being caught but its too late, he had been spotted and in turn so had Jungkook.Â
You continue to slurp on your shake, allowing Namjoon to feed you some fries from his plate while you stare at Jungkook, calling him mentally and hoping heâd look over so you could give him a smile and wave as if you hadnât ghosted him with no warning.Â
He can feel your piercing gaze, how you refuse to look away until he stares back but he wont give you that, he wouldnât give you the satisfaction of seeing the way his face crumbles at you being with another guy after throwing him to the curb. Instead he chooses to continue staring at his straw wrapper like it was the most interesting thing in the world.Â
His friends can sense his discomfort, not commenting on it and allowing him to guide the conversation until heâs relaxing in his booth, stuffing his face with food until the Jungkook they know reveals himself once more, all smiles and laughs instead of the moping version of himself he was earlier.Â
That same Jungkook lingers for a while after leaving the diner, a new set of determination in his mind to move on. You had gone ahead and blocked him, did the first part for him and if that wasnât a sign for him to pack up his feelings and take a hike then he doesnât know what was.Â
He finds himself glad he hadnât asked you for coffee two weeks ago, his nerves getting the best of him being the saving grace for what wouldâve been further embarrassment. If you had said yes out of pity only to block him before even going out he probably wouldâve dug himself a grave and face planted right into it.Â
For the first time in a very long time he finds himself not thinking of you, resuming his earlier activities of dating the girls who pursued him. He hadnât realized how much of you consumed him until he was with someone else, kissing a girl who was kissing him because she wanted to, not because she was trying to muffle a confession she knew was coming.Â
By the fourth week Jungkook is proud of himself, applauding his strength for not succumbing to you, caving and texting you for an explanation. He wasnât weak.Â
He wasnât.Â
Until his phone dings with a notification.Â
His hand freezes on its way to his mouth, cheeto dust coating his finger from snacking while he binge watched random shows on Netflix. Jungkook doesnât know whats waiting for him as he licks his fingers before grabbing his phone, the cheeto dust going down the wrong pipe as he saw your name flashing on his phone in the form of an instagram notification.Â
He pounds on his chest with his fist, uncapping his water and gulping it down to get rid of the scratchy feeling now lingering in his throat.Â
You had just followed him.Â
You followed him again after blocking him weeks ago.Â
Jungkook just stares at the screen until it fades to black, his own reflection looking back at him until he lights it up once more to make sure he wasnât hallucinating. His finger swipes the screen to unlock it, checking the notification and seeing that you had in fact unblocked him and refollowed him, your grid of photos filling up the screen in a way they werenât before.Â
He was at a loss of what to do, just staring at your profile, the blue follow button taunting him, begging to be pressed, pleading for him to once again get sucked under your spell.Â
You must be watching your notifications, waiting to see any new activity on your page because the second Jungkook follows you back youâre shooting him a text faster than he can blink, not being able to take back what he did before his phone is buzzing with a message.Â
Jungkook is faced with a realization at this, he was in fact very weak.Â
His brain works on its own accord, opening up your thread of messages and seeing the new one sitting nice and pretty in the bottom left corner.Â
y/n 10:48pm : hey kookie, you busy?
He eyes the message for a few minutes, not knowing what to respond with. Was he busy? Technically if you considered a netflix binge to be important. But that stupid voice in the back of his head, the one that sent him to your beck and call speaks up, loud and clear, yelling at him to text back and say he always had time for you.Â
jungkook 10:53pm : oh hey, no whats up!
jungkook 10:53pm : *?
The three dots of you typing pop up instantly only giving him seconds to prepare before your message swoops in.Â
y/n 10:53pm : wanna come over? iâll make it worth your while
Suggestive emojis finish off the message and he wants to slap himself when his dick stirs to life at the thought of what youâd do to make it worth it after the hell youâve put him through recently.Â
Itâs just lust. Thatâs all this is, thats the only reason he send you a text saying he was on his way so fast theres a typo in it, getting to your apartment faster than he ever has.Â
When you swing the door open you shock him when you wrap your arms around him and pull him in for a kiss, its messy, mostly tongue and teeth as you tug at the hair along the nape of his neck in desperation.Â
It takes Jungkook a minute to react to it, you were kissing him, something youâd never allowed him to do during sex. He wonders what this meant, a small bite to his lip being what snaps him out of it and forces him into action.Â
His large hands wrap around your waist, tugging you closer to him before he hauls you up, getting you to hook your legs on his hips as he blindly guides you towards your bedroom, a route he knows very well.Â
âYou got here fast.â You breathe out as you pull away, laughing when he chases after your lips, getting a taste of the way they feel during the heat of the moment he wanted more of it, wanted to swallow down your moans in ways heâs never been able to before.Â
âYou told me youâd make it worth my while.â He plays it off, latches his lips onto your neck as he throws your bedroom door open, walking the both of you towards your bed and letting you flop down onto it.Â
âDid you miss me.â You tease, an evil glint in your eye as you kneel on the bed, your hands resting on his shoulders while you stare at him like the innocent angel you arenât.Â
âYou blocked me.â He huffs, allowing you to slide his shirt off even though he was still upset about that, tossing it behind you without a care. You move onto your own shirt, an oversized grey shirt that belongs to Namjoon but youâd never tell Jungkook that, either way his attention lands on your exposed tits, the shirt and who it belongs to not even crossing his mind now that he had an eyeful of your pert chest.Â
âNo I didnât.â You lie so effortlessly, having the motions down to a science. The tilt of your head, the squinting of your eyes that painted an image of you not knowing what he was talking about. The slight lift in your tone in what he mistakes as genuine confusion is what starts the swirls of doubt in his brain. You knew though, you knew very well that you had indeed blocked him.Â
âYeah you did.â He pushes, trying to lean in to kiss you again but you seemed to be over that, the initial neediness you felt leaving you and he feels the sting he hadnât felt in a long time. Jungkook pushes it away and chooses to let his mouth kiss your jaw and begin sucking on your neck once more.Â
âHm, no I didnât Kookie.â Your voice sounds so sure, so confident that it has him second guessing himself. Had you really blocked him or had he just gotten it mixed up?Â
His lips pause on your skin from his inner debate and you know you need to move this along before he questions you further, pulls out a screenshot of him clearly being blocked with no chance of deniability.Â
âLet me make this worth your while like I said, that sound good?â You ask, smiling when he nods against your skin, the topic of whether or not you blocked him leaving his mind, destined to come back again once heâs at home laying in bed and having a crisis.Â
Jungkookâs mind short circuits when you reach for his pants, your hands palming the growing bulge contained in them, begging to be taken care of because itâs been so long.Â
âYeah, yeah okay.â He stutters out, letting himself get moved around until he was sat on the edge of your bed while you hopped off. Jungkook takes it upon himself to yank his jeans off, his hunger for you taking over, wanting to move this forward until you were sinking down on his cock, the pleasure clouding his common sense. He needed that because he was having an inner debate on if this was a good idea or not.Â
You fall to your knees it front of him after shimmying out of your shorts, a surprising turn of events that he doesnât see coming judging by the look on his face. That same teasing laugh is sent his way as you tug at his black briefs, his hips lifting off the bed to slip them off, his cock springing free and he sighs at no longer being confined.Â
You lick your lips over as you stare at his cock, the thickness of it making your mouth water as you trace the pretty veins wrapped around it with your eyes, leading up to his red tip, leaking beads of precum.Â
Jungkook groans when you wrap your hand around his length, the second you texted him he was half hard, aching and needy for release of any kind. He swears he could cum then and there when you noisily spit into your other palm, gliding it up his length to spread the wetness around and starting a slow rhythm.Â
âFeel good?â You ask innocently, faux sweetness he knows far too well dripping from your tongue, thick like syrup and he finds himself wanting to lap it up.Â
Jungkook knows youâre getting a kick out of it, watching the way youâre biting on your lip and smiling when his face screws up at being touched, the slow pumping of your hands only teasing him and pushing his head further under the stream of pleasure Â
âShit, yeah.â He mumbles out, his stomach hiccuping when you lean forward and let a glob of spit land on the head of his cock, the way it drips down his length and pools at your hands as you continue your motion only serves to send Jungkook deeper into a frenzy.Â
Itâs not until you finally take him into your mouth, slow and gentle as if you didnât like to deep throat his cock until youâre choking, that Jungkook lets a moan finally slip through the gates of his teeth. It urges you on, the first rock being thrown at his glass exterior, a tiny sliver of a crack exposing itself and giving you a way in again.Â
Jungkook forgets how to breathe for a minute, his mouth slack jawed as he watches in awe at the way you sink your mouth further onto his length. Your pretty lips pulled tightly around his girth, your cheeks hollowing up as you suck your way back up with a noisy slurp.Â
âSo good.â He groans out, his hand creeping its way around you until he had a fistful of your hair in his grip. Jungkook smiles now when you go lax in his hands, your mouth widening up when he starts to push your head down, his cock nudging along your throat and making you gag, muscles spasming around him but he doesnât relent until your nose is nuzzled along the small patch of hair around the base of his cock.Â
He sighs out, feeling as if the balance of everything had been restored now that you were kneeling pliant between his legs, mouth stuffed with cock, not being able to fuck with his mind with your sweet sounding lies and convincing eyes.Â
When he finally pulls you off of him you gasp in a breath, wet and stuck to your throat, your eyes watering up from being choked but the arousal dripping down your thighs showed how much you loved it. Jungkook pouts at you, a clear sense of mockery in it and it makes you want to laugh at how the tables turned. His hand cups your cheek, his thumb smearing the drool around your mouth and making a bigger mess of it all.Â
âWhat, thats it?â He taunts, his eyebrow raising up as you roll your lips together, âYou choke on my dick and forget how to make this worth my while?â
His words make you squeeze your thighs together, seeking any sort of friction to ease the pressure building in your core. You loved when Jungkook got like this, flipped a switch in the middle of it and bossed you around, it was the main reason you enjoyed pushing his buttons, wanting to get him to the point where heâd do it back to you.Â
âNo.â You rasp out, your head lolling to the side as your tongue glides along your lips, visions of tied up cherry stems and sharp words trailing behind it.Â
âShow me then.â He orders, thighs spreading further apart as his hand gestures for you to get to it, for you to show him exactly why you called him over.Â
As you sink back onto his cock, he wonders if the reason you invited him today was because one of your boy toys had flaked on you, left you high and dry and you needed a fix like you always did. Another part of him wonders if you finally messaged him to keep him close, to not let him stray too far away from you, leave him open and available for you whenever you decided he was needed.Â
Jungkook seemed to be getting the good end of this deal right now, whatever it may be so he rides it through, letting grunts of pleasure slip through the seam of his lips when you find the right pace. Your hands word in tandem with your mouth, twisting and pumping in unison.Â
He begins rocking his hips up towards your face, a crooked smile on his face at the mess youâre making on his cock, he likes it too much. The wet thump of your fist pumping down, the way you slurp on his length like it was that damn popsicle you used to taunt him with.Â
âSo fucking dirty.â Jungkookâs voice is husky now, drawn out while he lets himself get lost in it all, heavy with the lust clouding his brain. His words just encourage you, working past the aching feeling in your jaw as you try your best, needing a distraction from the night youâve had and thats what Jungkook was best for.Â
The simmering warmth he feels growing in his gut starts to boil over when you grasp one of his balls, your fingers fondling them in a teasing motion before you switch off and latch your mouth around them instead.Â
Jungkook can only curse under his breath, his fingers weaving through your hair once more and tugging at the strands, feeling you moan against his skin at the sting on pain at your scalp.Â
âFuck, Iâm gonna cumââ Jungkook warns, trying to pull you away from him but you stay put, your hands continuing the motions your mouth was no longer doing, âDonât you want me to fuck you?â He wonders, if he came now youâd have to wait a while before he was ready to go again and he knew you werenât the most patient person.Â
âNo, wanna make you feel good.â Is all you mumble out before slipping his length back into your mouth. The warmth that envelops his cock has him groaning out once more, his mouth dropped open as his chest heaved at the oncoming orgasm. Â
âAh,â he whines when you sink all the way down until your nose nuzzles against his skin, âwhere do you want me to cum?â
Itâs breathless and needy, making you pop off of him with a sultry smile, âMy face.â
Jungkook nods, half delirious as he stands up on his weakening legs and fists his cock, the spit lathered on it helping him glide as fast as he needed to. The way youâre sat in front of him, your palms pressed to your thighs, mouth wide open with your tongue sticking out and your eyes locked onto him, sends his mind reeling.Â
The angry tip of his cock peaks out with every pump of his fist, only needing a few more flicks of his wrist before his stomach was caving in and flexing as he came.Â
Jungkook lets out strangled moan, thick ropes of cum streaming out and landing in globs on your face in short spurts. Your eyes fluttering shut when you feel it land on your cheek, your nose, and dripping down onto your awaiting tongue.Â
Heâs panting above you as he comes down, his hand raking through his own hair as he tries to calm his breathing down, the tingling feeling spread throughout his body dulling down. When your eyes blink up at him, he can just tell youâre up to something when you stick your tongue back in your mouth and swallow, an evil smirk spreading across your cum streaked face.Â
âHere let me grab you a towel.â He starts to move towards your bathroom but your palm reaches out to grab his thigh, stopping him in his tracks.Â
âNo, do me a favor.â You ask him in that tone that made him shiver, your hand pointing at your desk, right at the white polaroid camera you had propped on top of it. Jungkook doesnât know what youâre planning but he reaches for it anyways, handing you the device only to have you thrust it back in his hands.Â
âTake a photo of me.â You say it so sweetly, like youâre asking him to take a photo of you smiling with flowers in your hair.Â
Jungkookâs face twists up in confusion. You wanted a photo of yourself covered in his cum. You were definitely planning something and it was clear now that Jungkook was an accessory to all of this.Â
Still he nods and points the camera down at you, begging his slowly softening dick to not spur back to life at the face you give him. Your hairâs messy from his hands yanking at it, your eyes wide and innocent as you scoop some of the cum off your cheek and pop it into your mouth for the photo.Â
The flash goes off and you hum around your digit, slipping it out of your mouth as Jungkook grabs the exiting photo from the top of the camera.Â
He sets it all down and is ready to go about the routine the way you always did but you stop him once more, âWait, take another one.â
And like clockwork Jungkook obeys, the hex you had on him controlling his motions until he has the camera in his grasp a second time. He presses it against his eye and looks down at you, a strained gasp leaving him when you grab his sensitive cock and let the tip of it slip into your mouth.Â
His fingers press on the shutter button immediately, capturing the moment on a little rectangle of film, the flash filling the room. When he goes to hand it to you all you do is shake your head and stand up on your sore legs.Â
âKeep it.â You shrug, pulling your hair up into a pony tail and reaching for the other photo on your bed sheets.Â
âI donât think your boyfriend would like that.â It slips out without warning, an unknowing jab sent your way and Jungkookâs eyes widen at the words he just said as he steps into his jeans after slipping his underwear back on.Â
You freeze as well, the grey shirt that belonged to the man he was talking about feeling heavy on your frame. âYou mean Namjoon?â You question, not an ounce of shame in your words, knowing very well that Jungkook had spotted you out with him a few weeks ago.Â
The name feels bitter on your tongue, trying your best not to let your distaste show on your face as you stare at him. Jungkook didnât need to know that Namjoon had called it quits with you, the sneaking suspicion that you were messing around with someone else being too strong. It was the main reason you blocked Jungkook on instagram, he had become prime suspect number one thanks to the way he bombarded your photos.Â
You needed to keep your distance from Jungkook in order to keep your relationship with Namjoon afloat, at least in the beginning, then you could go back to your routine. But Namjoon was too observant, and all it took was finding a pair of underwear that didnât belong to him slipped under your bed for the mirage to come crumbling down around you.Â
It angered you more because you had been careful, stopped sleeping around, but because Jungkook had left a pair of underwear weeks ago in his haste to leave it became a chain reaction the lead to Namjoon slamming the door behind him as he left your place a while before Jungkook stumbled his way through.Â
That was too much information to tell Jungkook, you didnât want to give him the impression that you searched for his comfort in the form of physical touch after your boyfriend left you. You didnât need him to know that he was the only constant in your life, slot in between every failed relationship, maintaining his spot as the one you called to when you needed a distraction.Â
Jungkookâs eyes narrow at the name, remembering the flashing âjoonieâ on your phone screen. He only gives you a nod in response, his confusion deepening when you laugh.Â
âHeâs just a friend.â You lie through your teeth, setting the photo you knew youâd be sending him later onto your desk, grabbing a small towel you had and wiping your face clean with it.Â
Jungkook doesnât fully believe you but he doesnât fight it, choosing to finish getting dressed in silence. If he was just a friend and was able to get you to go out on a date with him that what were Jungkookâs chances? What were the odds that his own name wasnât some cute version of âkookieâ with an obscene amount of hearts at the end of it?
That was all wishful thinking though, he knew deep down that his name was just a plain and simple Jungkook, he knew the minute heâd ask you to go have lunch youâd ghost him like you did before.Â
You watch him curiously as he puts his shoes on, seeing the way his mind was working on overdrive, overthinking everything and talking himself into circles. You needed him to stay close, to not let him get a taste of what life would be like without you so you approach him with that same saccharine smile.Â
âThanks Kookie.â You whisper out, cupping his cheek and leaning up on your toes to press a gentle kiss goodbye on his lips. He kisses back instantly, needing to feel more, wanting to wrap his arms around you like he did earlier but that was gone now and you were stepping back too quickly.Â
A small yawn escapes your lips and he gets the hint, stuffing the dirty polaroid into his jean pocket and giving you a half smile, âYeah of course, Iâll see you later Y/N.â
You flop onto your bed and wave at him as he exits your room but once the door shuts behind him you flip onto your stomach and groan loudly into your pillow, unaware that Jungkook could still hear you from his spot in the hallway.Â
He decides not to open the door back up and check on you, making a swift exit and rushing to get into his car like he was running from something. And in a way he was.
Now that heâs confined inside his vehicle he slips the photo out of his pocket, turning the overhead lighting on to look at it properly now that it was developed.Â
Your eyes were half lidded as you stared into the camera, your hand wrapped around the base of his cock while the tip of it prodded at your cheek, face covered in ribbons of his cum. It was the most explicit photo heâd ever had and he canât even let himself get excited over it. Instead he opens up his center divider and stuffs the photo into there before slamming it shut.Â
He pulls out of his parking spot and takes off back home, that hollow feeling in his chest returning when he remembers the words you told him today. He knows you were lying to him, Jungkook wasnât stupid, but he just doesnât understand what he did for you to constantly treat him this way.Â
He feels the stinging at the back of his eyes, the streetlights becoming blurry at the edges as his vision got misty. An idea pops into his head so he pulls over onto a random corner, blinking away the tears before they could fall as he pulls his phone out of his pocket. He knew what he had to do, for his own sanity.
You two werenât right for each other, he was tired of being this puppet on strings for you to play with until you got bored and moved on to the next shiny new thing. Jungkook was sick of dreaming about taking you out, sick of wondering what lies youâd tell him next because you knew he was wrapped so tightly around your finger that he could never fight you on it.Â
So he opens up instagram and goes to your page instantly, not letting himself think twice before heâs clicking on the block button, locking his phone and throwing it on the passenger seat before resuming his drive home, begging himself not to succumb to you once again.
And as you sit on your bed at home, scrolling through instagram and taking a peek at his page, knowing he usually posted an instagram story of whatever song he was listening to after leaving your apartment, youâre shocked to see the same words that haunted Jungkook for weeks.Â
No posts yet.Â
He had blocked you. For the first time in the years youâve been fooling around you finally get a taste of the way youâve been treating him. And as you sit in bed having the same dilemma he had before, wondering what you did or said, debating sending him a text, you feel the first twist in your heart that Jungkook had grown accustomed to and you donât like it.
#ficswithluv#goldenclosetnet#btsghostie#btswritingcafe#yoonkooknetwork#jungkook smut#jungkook angst#jeon jungkook#bts smut#new
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Plesse tell me about queerness in the get down!!
okay okay queerness in the get down let's fuckn goooo
disclaimer: I havent watched this show in full for like 5 months at least, probably gonna get something wrong and/or forget some more important bits. also this wasnt proof read I just word vomited
tws: period typical homophobia, abuse mention, f slur use, bury your gays trope, overdose mention, mention of a creepy possible age gap (the age gap hasnt been confirmed so that's why its possible), cops
going from least to most prominent queer characters, let's start with mylene cruz!
so, from the beginning of this show she has an established romantic relationship with ezekiel (although the status of their actual relationship changes frequently throughout the show) and though this was a relationship she was hesitant to pursue, it is clear that she does have romantic feelings for him and if not for them both having growing careers in very different music genres (zeke specifically working in a genre that she repeatedly labels as bad because she thinks they're ruining records + that it isnt real music because they're using someone elses piece and rapping over it, that's not really important here tho lol) they probably wouldve had a much healthier, smooth sailing romance. that being said theres a few things that happen in the show that, while not explicitly clear, or even really good coding at thatâto the point where you wont catch if you really arent looking for it (and trust me, I always look for coding, hers was just so little that it flew over my head until I saw someone else mention it)âare still cool to think about!
so, for starters, I wanna mention the toy box performance, which was performed by mylene and regina, who are best friends. that's all cool and shit, and you dont really think much about it...until you hear about the fact that the show runners purposely colored a lot of the scenes in that performance with the bi colors. like. the writers after the show ended basically said "oh yeah there was plans to make her coding more explicit, but our shit got cancelled soooo" and then dropped the fact that she was gonna be bi (or at least implies bi) in the series, which puts a new twist on a few things.
now, besides the bi coloring in the background of the toy box performance (which was mostly on scenes with her and regina, which involved a lot of uh,, lowkey lewd dancing. with each other. in very revealing outfits. wooooo), there's her music! I dont tend to read too much into this one bc, like I said before, her coding is fucking light and the writers themselves said they didnt really get to do much with it, but I think some stuff with her music is interesting. specifically how her, yolanda and regina's song set me free blew up because dizzee, resident (lowkey enby coded) bicon, got their song played in a queer club. also that the song was majorly important to dizzee and started playing literally right as he kissed a boy for the first time and realized "oh shit I like boys that's bonkers". also that the song can be taken in a gay way since literally the entire thing is about becoming your true self, fully and unapologetically, which is what both dizzee and mylene's entire character arcs are about. dizzee (and a lot of other queer people, apparently), heard this song about being set free and it resonated with them so much that they got that shit most of its popularity.
speaking of dizzee and mylene, they parallel each other a lot in the way that their arcs are about them realizing who they are, coming into themselves and no longer just letting people treat them like shit in a sense (dizzee starting to tell people essentially that they can call him weird all they want, they can make fun of how he acts, what he likes, how he dresses, etc. but he likes how he is and quite literally saying "it's okay to be an alien" as he has consistently compared himself to one throughout the show vs mylene learning that if she wants to be a disco singer she needs to put her foot down, not let anyone, not even the love of her life, not even her abusive father, stop her from achieving her dreams, etc. and continuing to pursue her career with or without their support). one more little parallel that I think is interesting is during I think s2 towards the end of the show is when dizzee and thor are shown together having fun with each other, painting all over the building and each other and are basically just being happy and in love together and then they have these clips of them being interspersed with clips of mylene at a party where she is starting to realize that if she wants to get anywhere she needs to be her own main priority and that she needs to put her career and her dream, which is what makes her the happiest, above all else if she wants to succeed. idk I just think how the show made these two into a weird parallel, accidental or not, is neat. maybe not an explicitly queer parallel, but I think at least how her music and whatnot helped dizzee, the main queer character in this show, blossom, is important.
moving on we got shaolin fantastic also known as "oh no your internalized homophobia is showing-"
so, heres a quick list of...interesting shao facts:
Consistently referred to as fag/faggot (shaolin fanfaggot is my personal favorite); he gets really defensive about this despite nobody actually thinking he's queer, it's just people being assholes to be assholes, and he is the only character consistently referred to using a slur, especially a homophobic one, especially for a "straight" character. dizzee, a canonically queer character, is called a fag less than shaolin is even though dizzee actively goes to gay clubs, has a not so secret dude he "hangs out with" and wont let anyone properly meet, paints his nails, wears less than straight clothes even by the 70s standards and is just all around the definition of fucking queer (and I mean like in the weird way, not the gay way). in fact theres only like once I can remember him being called a fag and it had nothing to do with him actually being gay it was literally just like thrown out there the same way you would call someone a bitch.
Has only shown sexual interest in women, yet refuses to have deeper relationships with women in general (possibly because of trauma but who knows) but takes his relationships with his "brothers", specifically zeke, very seriously
Tells zeke and zeke ONLY his real name when zeke was planning to stop being his friend bc shao more or less got boo boo, a like 14 year old black kid, arrested for selling hard drugs; he was clearly scared and trying to do anything to keep zeke around, literally chasing him down the street and hounding him until he got zeke to stop and argue with him
Kept threatening to beat up zeke in the end but couldn't actually bring himself to do so, instead saying that zeke is "fucking lucky" before walking away
Let's zeke get away with things that nobody else can, in general just has a weird soft spot for ezekiel that he shows with nobody else
when shao found dizzee with thor in a vaguely compromising situation (like they were just shirtless covered in paint sleeping next to each other but shao had also seen everything they painted on the walls ((which some of it was sus)), it was clear they had painted on each others bodies and dizzee had been routinely disappearing with this guy for weeks now yet not producing nearly as much art, at least, as far as we audience members know) he didnt judge him but instead, waited for him to get cleaned up and then told him something along the lines of "theres a reason why im so secretive blah blah blah [not everyone needs to know everything about me]", which, in context, kinda implies that he might be a lil. a lil homiesexual. jus a lil.
whenever even the possibility of zeke leaving him comes up he absolutely loses it. he has literally cost ezekiel life changing opportunities because he thought zeke would just up and leave him for them. this could be abandonment issues bc he's a severely traumatized character, and that probably does contribute to it, but it also is just not a reaction he has to any of their other friends just randomly dipping in and out of his life soooooo
generally speaking, this mfer has got either bisexual with a big hard on for zeke coding or homosexual with terrible internalized homophobia and still a hard on for zeke coding. either fucking way, that nigga gay. he gay as hell. gay as fuck man. there wasn't really much to analyze here tbh bc the coding is just so fucking obvious if you look for it or you are/have been a gay person who's dealt with at least a little bit of internalized homophobia.
also, just a sidenote, idk how fucking old shao, but I'm praying hes like at max 19 bc I'm pretty sure zeke is a minor in this show and shao definetly is not so the whole him being heavily implied to have a crush on ezekiel thing is kinda. oof. not oof if zeke is like 17 but any younger than that? OOF.
edit: apparently the characters are only supposed to be a year apart in age but i had no clue about that before writing this post and since shaos age was never actually stated in the show i naturally assumed he was an adult since his actor Looks Like An Adult. this is definetly on me to a certain extent, but i also never saw anything about this when trying to find our their ages so đ¤ˇââď¸ maybe i just didnt look deep enough, sorry!
now moving on to the main event...marcus dizzee kipling :]
so, first things first, let's talk enby coding bc him being bisexual was already confirmed!
um, to start off, I just wanna say I dont think this enby coding was intentional or even really coding, it's just moreso me being a dizzee kin on main and knowing as a transmasc enby he has very transmasc enby vibes. for example:
cool, gender neutral nickname that everyone calls him
paints nails various different colors
the whole wardrobe is just a transmasc enby heaven...fishnet shirts, jean overalls, jackets and cuffed pants galore, the big colorful pins, etc
gender neutral hairstyle (when I had my fro it was very sexy and made it easy to transition between hyper masc and vaguely fem, which is pog)
comparing himself to/representing himself consistently with an alien character (though this is meant to represent his sexuality, it could also double as a gender thing too, not neccesarily bc of the whole nonbinary alien trope but bc an enby who likes aliens might heavily identify or compare themselves to whatever their idea of an alien is, whether that just be a genderless entity or a motherfucker with fly style and no need to be perceived as anything other Wacky As Hell)
moving on from there, let's talk about how his queerness is presented to us and how, while it may be a really good piece of representation, especially coming from netflix, it still lacks in A Lot of places.
so, let's start with good things!
i personally really like the get down's queer rep with dizzee bc it's (for the most part) nonsexualized and very very soft, about dizzee figuring himself out and realizing there is a place where he fits in, and about two teenagers in the 70s falling in love over their shared passion for street art. it also features an interracial couple where both boys challenge stereotypes both about queer men and men of color, which is epic poggers and very sexy. this piece of rep specifically is very important to me bc I am a queer black person and even tho interracial relationships are mostly normalized now, I've still had people give me shit for primarily dating white people in a town that is...primarily white lol
mm anyways, I can also appreciate how in the get down, dizzee being represented by rumi the alien is not a thing specifically related to gender (as it often is) and instead is about his sexuality and just in general weirdness and how it has led to him being alienated amongst his peers, poc or otherwise. him seeing himself as an alien is not about just his queerness, which is important, it is about him being a queer black man who talks different, acts different, dresses different and is "soft"âhe isnt a walking black male stereotype and he wouldnt have been seen as masculine back in the 70s by any stretch of the imagination. this can be relatable to a wide spectrum of queer poc, from queer black men currently who still have to deal with this shit or to people like myself who are afab neurodivergent mixed race enbies that have always been signaled out as weird and alienated for it. dizzee is god rep bc while he has a small part in this show, his parts are very impactful, hard hitting and show queer poc of all ages that they arent alone and that it's okay to "weird", you just need to embrace it because somebody will love you for you, as thor did for dizzee.
that being said theres um. some minor problemas here,,,
namely:
dizzee and thors first kiss
the lack of development this pairing got
the way dizzee was confirmed bisexual off screen, he never said the words himself, just showed interest in both genders
the way dizzee and thor were never even confirmed boyfriends or just fwb so most of the fandom just calls them boyfriends bc Why Not
dizzee was implied fucking DEAD??? AT THE END OF THE SERIES?????? AND THOR WAS IMPLIED ARRESTED?????????????
now, these might have been things that wouldve been fine had the show been given it's full run but it wasnt which is why we are now left with probelms.
so, from the top, let's go over these: dizzee and thor's first (and only "on screen") kiss was one that was shown in a montage of other queer people making over and doing other vaguely romantic/sexual things, one of those things being a whole ass naked titty being mouthed at, but the actual kiss...was just not shown? like they really did just say "yes they kissed <3 you know this from the context clues of it being in a montage with kissing, hickey giving and titty sucking <3 but no we will not show it <3" LIKE HELLO? I SAW A NAKED BOOBIE BUT NOT TWO MEN KISS??? HUH????????
also, dizzee and thor were both fucking high as hell during this bit like this isnt a terrible thing but it's also like sometimes you do shit when you're high that you wouldnt do sober and they just never kissed again on screen so like?? like idk that's not that bad but it does kinda irk me since they deadass got no other on screen intimacy after that unless you including painting on eacher other or sleeping next to each other on a shitty mattress but not touching at all during it bc they were both at opposite ends of the mattress like half way off it
so yeah, that was trash. then we got lack of development, which kinda goes with the "dizzee being a bisexual but he never says it in canon" thing cause like...okay dizzee was already sort of a side character from the get go like he wasnt the mc by any means, but he became way more of a background character as things continued until we basically only saw him for performances or when he was with thor, yet they got no fucking development as a pairing other than "dizzee realize he gay, he like thor, he and thor spend time together and ig probably do some gay stuff but we dont really know bc we only ever see them do graffiti together now" like?? tf am I supposed to do with that shit. answer. quickly. and then theres dizzee not being confirmed bisexual, which is just a running problem with shows literally doing everything to say a character is bi except for having the character just...say they're bi? which would be so easy? like a good way dizzee and thor couldve had some development is by thor teaching dizzee things about the queer community that he didnt even know existed, thor couldve helped him understand what being bi meant and helped him label himself and whatnot but instead we got an off screen confirmation that the writers had bisexual in mind when writing him. which is garbagĂŠ.
the whole thor and dizzee never having a confirmed relationship status is also a development problem cause like literally nobody knows if they were just friends who made out, maybe fucked, who knows, or if they were dating bc dizzee does give a love confession but a love confession doesn't mean there is a relationship, especially since thor didn't say he was in love either (as far as I remember, I could be wrong, plus whether or not that really happened or was apart of dizzee literally overdosing during a performance is unclear so đ¤Ş)
and now for the biggest issue...bury your gays trope.
during the season 2 finale, dizzee and thor are chased by cops after they are found doing graffiti, one of the cops is able to catch thor while the other chases dizzee into a train tunnel and there is a train seen headed straight for him before the show cuts to black on a train horn. the show writers claim that if they had gotten another season, dizzee wouldve been alive but since they didnt and since that's essentially super fan trivia knowledge, most people dont fucking know that and instead had to watch a black queer teenager chose death over being fucking arrested by a white cop. on top of that, thor didnt see any of that shit because he was caught and the cop started hauling him off while dizzee was still being chased so thor literally has no clue where his friend/possible boyfriend fucking is or that he's likely dead in a goddamn tunnel all alone, unless you count the fucking pig that chased him in there who wouldve died too. this shows rep was so fucking good as far as most shows go on not having major fucking problems, on not being toxic and over sexualized, etc, etc. and then they just. killed a black queer teenager for no fucking reason. like it was literally the last episode ever, it would add nothing to the plot, it would just devastate fans and devastate it fucking did. I dont cry easy but seeing a character I identified with, who I had hyperfixated on, die because he'd rather that than be arrested is terrible. it fucking sucked.
so yeah. that's my all too extensive thoughts/analysis on the get down's queerness. theres definitely stuff I missed, or misinterpreted, or looked too much into, etc, etc., but this was a fun thing to spend time writing sooo yeah!! thanks for the ask anon, sorry this was just a big rambley info dump, but hopefully you get some enjoyment out of it since it took like 3 hours at least đđ feel free to ask clarifying questions lol
#shit self#asks#the get down#mylene cruz#shaolin fantastic#dizzee kipling#long post#analysis#info dump#idk if anon has seen tgd or is just being nice so i tried givinh background to things#kinz#bangerz#discourse
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Headcanons for being Peter Parkerâs Younger Sibling
Peter Parker x sibling!reader
warnings: bullying mention, blood mention
a/n: a fuckin reach, its been a WHILE since ive seen tasm
prompt: y/n is peterâs sibling
peter and you were playful kids
you were just a year and some months younger than him, so you had a harder time remembering your parents than him
but he always told you stories about them that made you miss them a little more
peter was a genius, we all know it
he was the one helping you with your homework most nights
âpeter i cant do it!â
âthatâs okay, y/n. look, start with two times four, thatâs eight, then four times six, twenty-four, right?â
âcan i say a cuss word?â
âsureâ
âmath is shitâ
you would cry during homework a lot
youâd also pass out on his floor after talking for hours
and youâd either wake up facedown on the floor or in your room since uncle ben would pick you up and put you to bed
peter took it upon himself to take you back to your room, but he usually dragged you by the arm, sooooo
youâd play action figures together
he was batman, you were robin always
âcan i be batman?â
âoldest gets to be batman so im batmanâ
âbut i wanna be batman!â
peter walked you to your school before taking off on his skateboard
and heâd pick you up on his way home
on half-days your brother taught you how to skate
you fell a lot
aunt may had to patch you up
âhow many times do i have to tell you those skateboards are dangerous?!â
peter got you your own skateboard so that you could practice without him
you would text him after you did a trick and heâd always say hell yes! show me when i get home!
being his photography assistant
really you were his assistant constantly
science fair was the most boring day of the year
ây/n, stand right here, i need to get something from my lockerâ
*judges walk up while youre left unattended and in a state of PANIC*
you were bullied in middle school, same as peter, heâd always stick up for you and get beat up instead
it made you very mad but it was scary, too
âhowâd you get into this fight, peter?â
âoh, you know, just happenedâ
âpeter was sticking up for me, uncle benâ
âwas he now? youâre a good brother, peterâ
lonely when he moved onto high school :/
but you got there soon enough
you guys were kind of loners, just ate lunch together, lugged around your skateboards, you were an artist, he was a photographer
just spectating the chaos of high school, rolling your eyes at the drama
âi have two bucks, do you want anything from the vending machine?â
âuhh, a coke?â
you saw peter get bullied by flash and lost your shitttt
you actually started a food fight after throwing mashed potatoes in his eyes
âwhat the hell, parker?!â
âsit down and eat your goddamn food, flash, or next time it wont be potatoesâ
peter was half-proud, half-embarrassed
trying to see how long you could skate through the halls before any authority figures stopped you
sometimes......you guys got sent to the office together :)
*phone ringing* âhello, is this ben parker?â
âwhich one of them is it this time?â
the principalâs office was a trip sometimes
you and peter exchange your glances and wait to get scolded
âah, the parkers, come in, lets have a chat...why do you two always feel the need to get in trouble together?â
âwe just happen to get along really well for siblingsâ
no you fuckin dont lmaoooo
it was always something with you two
like always
*banging on peterâs door* âI KNOW YOU HAVE MY BROWNIES, PETER, GIVE THEM BACKâ
*peter through a mouthful of brownies* âI HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOURE TALKING ABOUT, YOURE CRAZYâ
âis that my jacket?â -peter
âyou mean my jacket?â
ây/n, i swear to god if you steal any more of my clothes itâs over for youâ
âwell, aunt may keeps giving me your clothes, so take it up with herâ
and then there was just the little annoying things
âpeter, can you stop clicking your pen?â
*clicks pen faster*
âyouâre the worstâ
and my personal favorite
âpeter, open the doorâ
âwhy?â
âemergencyâ
*opens bedroom door* âwhat?â
âaunt may is making meatloafâ
âshit, uh...get your board, weâll skate to mcdonalds and tell her we already ateâ
peter and you RARELY ever brought your parents up until he found your dadâs briefcase, you didnât have much to say
soon he was flooding his room with conspiracies and pulling you in to explain them
he began acting REALLY weird, but he was pretty open with you, he told you he went to oscorp
âYOU SNUCK IN??â
âyour standards for me are way too high, y/nâ
soon you started to feel not-so-good and weird things started to happen
âpeter??â
âyeah? whats up?â
âthis is gonna sound really weird...my hand is stuck to the doorâ
âit happened to you, too??â
âhappening, pete. waitâthis happened to you?? what is this???????â
yall done fucked up and got bit by spiders peter had so carelessly brought back into the house
it was an adjustment to say the least
and this adjustment got a whole lot harder that one night...you can remember peter just...so upset
you tried to chase him out to make sure he was okay, but uncle ben told you to stay with your aunt
maybe if youâd have been there...it wouldâve been different, but when the cops got to your house you were at a loss for words
peter was covered in his blood still
âhey, hey, just breathe, okay? itâs not your fault, peter. just hop in the shower, yeah? iâll take care of your clothesâ
when peter took your advice and you were left alone, you just cried, you cried until he finally found you curled up in a ball in your room
then he cried, you just hugged each other sobbing your eyes out
peter got distant for a while, which was rough since the two of your were mourning for your uncle and dealing with these newfound powers
sooner or later he came around and helped you out, designing webshooters and a suit for you
âwe match?â
*sigh* âyeah...yeah, we matchâ
ah yes, spider-team
you really tripped out new york at first, they thought spider-man was a teleporter
peter was still talking about your dad, but you really didnât care, uncle ben was always going to be who raised you
you and peter would be covered in bruises after going out
âuhâpeter punched meâ
ây/n???!!!â
âI PANICKEDâ
just being dumb scared teens that cant function to save their lives until they get a little bit lucky
seriously like, every big villain you guys fought was just the worst
peter didnât help all the time, he was good at provoking them sometimes
âhey, spider-man, you mind shutting up for a minute? for my sake?â
âsorry, sorry, just couldnât help myself!â
he gushed to you about gwen stacy, he actually dragged you to her apartment to be patched up by her SEVERAL TIMES
yadda yadda yadda peter graduated high school! how cool is that? but he was late (what a surprise) even though you put off spidering today just for this
but he made it and you clapped the loudest for him
âthats my brotherrrr!!!â
cute family picture! (aunt may printed a bunch of them and gave them to you two and peter pinned them to his wall)
you and peter actually have a lot of pictures of the two of you just goofing off
he has one of you stuck in a trash can that cracks him up every time
seeing harry osborn again after YEARS
âwow, y/n, last time i saw you i just thought you were peterâs annoying little siblingâ
âaww, itâs good to see you, tooâ
electrooooo
this guy really worried you bc like, bzzzz shock
you and peter werenât equipped for that
it took a while, but you were finally able to deal with that
and several other problems
including peterâs breakup, which was a whole ordeal of its own
*peter laying upside down on your bed* âi dont know, y/n, you know? i wanna be with her so bad, i love her...but her dad is haunting meâ
*you, drawing on your notepad with your legs propped up on his* âyeah, makes senseâ
you actually had to tap out during the end of electro, you were hurt pretty bad
ây/n, hey? yeah, youâre okay. stay here, just stay right there, iâm gonna be back for youâ
*thumbs up to show youre still alive*
but when peter came back for you there was bad news, heâd lost gwen
he ripped his mask off and fell to his knees, you could barely move but you powered through it, giving him a hug while he cried
âwe...we better get home before aunt may starts to worryâ
she was at work, so you two had the place to yourselves to clean up and mourn before the official news was revealed
âi should have listened to her dad, y/n, this is all my faultâ
he was a mess, you couldnât bare seeing him like this. itâs been so long since youâd seen him like this
the funeral was rough, peter was grasping onto your shoulder the whole time
he insisted that he was going to stick behind and stay with gwen for a while
âokay, iâll see you at home...love youâ
âlove you tooâ
you gave him a hug and left him to his business, the next few months you were the only spider-person operating in new york...until rhino popped up
âim coming with youâ
âyouâre sure?â
âyeah, im sureâ
(these are kinda ass but anyways im tagging my marvel ppl even tho ik this isnt mcu so just ignore this post if you dont care, sorry!!)
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qijiu bingqiu (bingliushen??) fix-it fic planning blabber
so i think i gotta keep it tight on SJâs POV. Right before his death, he makes a deal with Xin Mo (whoâs kind of a lone operator bc LBH too has to fight its power) to create this alternate timeline in exchange for his cultivation. Xin Mo can open up new dimensions no problem, and with SJâs cultivation, it even manages to rewind the timeline. Thatâs not enough thoughâXin Moâs goal is only consumption, so it takes the deal but reveals thereâs nothing that will actually change. The price SJ paid only opened the door.
But thatâs fine, âcause SJ saw it coming. He also strikes another deal, this time with Death itself? Some sort of large cosmic force. The only thing he wants changed is Qi-geâs death, and in exchange...the universe takes him. SJ will not get to exist in that second universe. SJ takes the deal.
And thatâs the start of canon. SJ-as-SQQ can no longer exist. Instead, SY-as-SQQ is brought in. In order to stay cohered though, YQYâs memories and personality get a little glitchedâhe is physically incapable of recognizing all the ways SQQ is now not SJ. Thatâs why, despite SY-as-SQQ clearly being OOC, YQY never seems to see it.
Canon happens, now weâre in the post-canon world where bingqiu are married and settling down, but SQQ still kicks it with his buddies LQG and YQY every now and then. YQY still firmly believes SQQ is SJ, to SYâs increasing consternation. Is it just delusions and wishful thinking? The more YQY treats him as SJ though, the worse SY feelsâhe shouldnât be stealing all this affection that doesnât belong to him.
It all comes to head when SQQ overhears public opinion on YQY, how heâs perfect in everything but his crazy devotion to SQQ. SY thinks enough is enough. He canât bring SJ back but he sure can tell YQY that his Xiao Jiu is dead, right? The System warns him heâll be punished but thatâs fine, itâs just not fair, SQQ can take another little mental horror trip down to BinggeLand if it means YQY can have some closure.
Except thatâs not what happens. He gets YQY in private and says, âno, you donât understand, Shen Jiu is dead.â He sees the recognition in YQYâs eyes, but he also sees the moment that recognition gets wiped. The sad smile that had fallen off of YQYâs face returns, eerily happy, as YQY says, âmy apologies, Qingqiu-shidi, I must have spaced out just now, what did you say?â
Right before the System kicks him into another punishment phase, SY tries again: âShen Jiu is dead!â He sees the recognition disappear once again from YQYâs eyes.
Inside the punishment world, Bingge has him again. âIâve been searching for an answer to why the sniveling pathetic version of me gets you as his Shizun, and I think I figured it out.â For a moment, SYâs horrified by the possibility that Bingge has figured out his transmigrator statusâif his punishment figures it out, would he be trapped inside the punishment forever? But instead, Bingge says, âLiu Qingge is still alive, meaning Shizun didnât kill him in the spirit caves. Did his survival render such a dramatic change?â SQQâs like âyup, yup thatâs definitely it. Weâre such good friends, he really changed my outlook on life, so I treated you better, mhm.â
âShizunâs very clever then to save his own life this way. Xin Moâs already told me about your little bargain.â
Thatâs how SY learns that SJ had made a deal. Holy shit, heâd thought it was just random phenomenon this whole time, but the original goods had made it all possible? He didnât know whether to thank SJ or curse him.
But that canât be the whole storyâXin Mo opened up a timeline, that doesnât explain why SY is here. Bingge doesnât know this part, but it sure feels like SJ made a second deal, paying with his life.
What would motivate the original goods to do all this? Sacrifice his hard-won cultivation and his entire existence in this last-ditch effort?
The memory of YQYâs glitching came to mind.
Holy shit. SY owns the two of them more than heâd ever thought.
After the punishment, SY goes back home. Heâs with Binghe, and LBH can tell thereâs something troubling him.
âBinghe, thereâs something this husband wants to do, and I need your help to do it.â
âShizun, anything.â
â...But thereâs a risk it might hurt you. Thereâs a risk it might ruin everything. It might be straight-forward, but it also might not be. Itâs safer for all of usâbut especially you, Bingheâif I just let things be.â
âBut itâs not something that Shizun can just let be, is it? Otherwise Shizun wouldnât have said anything. Binghe is honored to help. Anything to ease Shizunâs mind.â
â...I promised I wouldnât let you come to harm again, and I meant that. Whatever happens, remember that I am your husband, this is my call, and you must do whatever you need to do to protect yourself, okay? Swear to me, Binghe.â
SQQ begins figuring out how to use Xin Mo to go fetch SJ from the other timeline. He figures that if Bingge could exist in this dimension without destroying the space-time continuum, the same ought to be true for SJ. Only trouble is, he can only go get SJ after SJâs made the deals, because otherwise itâs a paradox, and he wouldnât exist.
So SQQ brings home limbless, post-torture!SJ. Thatâs where the fic starts.
By all accounts, the deals are squared: SJ no longer has cultivation and SJ died in SYâs dimension, so SY successfully exists. SJ and SY can exist in the same space totally fine, and SJ begins healing.
(Currently, the fic is completely from SJâs POV, and very much about coming to terms with being saved and what the hell is going on in this better world.)
The trouble is, SY doesnât know whatâs going to happen when SJ meets YQY again. SJ very thoroughly declines the offer to go see YQY because part of SJ still believes this whole thing is a trick, and if he goes to see YQY heâll ruin his end of the bargain and YQY will die again. For SYâs part, heâs afraid of SJ going to see YQY too for similar but opposite reasonsâif SJ going to see YQY ruins SJâs end of the bargain, then wouldnât that mean SY can no longer exist? Would SY just disappear from this universe?
So we get ragtag group therapy fun times. SJ thinks this is probably all an illusion Xin Mo is tricking him with, so treats everything with scorn but also existential apathy. This actually works to his benefit because heâs not clinging to things as hard, and itâs easier for him to admit, for example, that he was definitely in the wrong for abusing LBH, and yeah he was being a spiteful bitch when he did not need to be.
SY tries to keep LBH away from SJ mostly, because câmon, heâs not about to make his darling husband face his childhood abuser. He does explain the situation to LBH though, in the same terms that Bingge had (mis)understood it lmfaoâthat the act of saving LQGâs life had prompted an entire 180 on his personality so he came out of the spirit caves a better man. LBHâs jealous as fuck of course, but damn if that doesnât explain some things. Given the opportunity to see his old and new Shizun side-by-side, LBH takes it, and really gets a moment to see how horribly heâs been treated by SQQ.
So it actually prompts some therapy between SY and LBH too. LBH used to figure that getting pushed into the Abyss was squared by SQQ sacrificing himself to save him. But ofc it turned out SQQ came back and kept on, in his perspective, trying to get away from him. Trying to leave him behind. SQQâs tried to treat his abandonment issues by going âokay sorry about that Iâll never leave you behind againâ but heâs never really explained it.
SJâs presence gives Binghe the ability to ask the question again and gives SY an answer: shame and cowardice. Theyâre able to put SJâs mistreatment of Binghe right in front of them and SY-as-SQQ gets to explain how much it hurt to look back on that bit of their past, but also how much he feared LBH's retaliation. LBH is a little hurt, but also he remembers how heâd raped SQQ under Xin Moâs control and, looking at whatâs left of SJ now, he sees his own darkest possibilities. He really did destroy the man he loves now in another timeline. That helps him contextualize SYâs fears and why SY chose to push him off the cliff.
LQG crashlands into the middle of this whole party as is his wont. He gets a little fix-it too maybe. SY very staunchly repeats the reason for his personality swapâsaving LQG in that cave made him a Better Personâ˘. Meeting the original goods again, LQG is forced to believe it. Or like, it doesnât really matter to him either way, but now he really does see pre-cave SQQ and post-cave SQQ as two completely different people.
SJ though, has to swallow this really weird pill. He remembers trying to save LQG inside the cave but failing, and then getting blamed for LQGâs death. If heâd succeeded, he and LQG wouldâve become...this close?? A life debt between them wouldâve changed his outlook on life so much???
Well whatever. Now that heâs put down all his old posturing, he more readily gives his reasons for why LQG gets on his nerves so much: the insufferable confidence (arrogant prick), the skills to back it up (privileged bastard), and a flawless cultivator family with all the money and the training and the pedigree. (Meanwhile SYâs like âoh shit thatâs me too hahahahah awkward, good thing he still thinks iâm him so he doesnât just murder me immediately.)
LQGâs a little weirded out too. SY-as-SQQ is his favorite person in the world, so itâs hard to get angry at SJ-as-SQQ since theyâre âthe same person.â Heâs more willing to talk all this out with SJ and brings up all their old beef on his side too: high-handed snootiness coupled with underhanded dick moves, also the whole sleeping-with-prostitutes thing hurting Cang Qiongâs reputation. Ofc theyâre snapping at each other this whole time. âThereâs no reason for you to do all that!â
SY intervenes if needed. âActually there is.â Considering the fact that SJ gets indicted for so many things that actually turn out to be not his fault, SY figures heâll just get it out there. âRemember Qiu Haitangâs accusations against me? I grew up a slave in that household. I grew up believing it was kill or be killedâit doesnât make sabotaging others right, but...thatâs why the Spirit Caves made such an impression on me. I learned it wasnât just kill or be killed, I can also save people. It opened my eyes to everything I already had, and everything I should be grateful for.â
This is for both LQG and SJ. And it works, to some degree. SJ knows he managed to claw to the top of privilege, but he still felt horribly insecure there. Thatâs because, he realizes, he never got the thing that would actually grant him security. It's not power or money or reputationâitâs Qi-ge. Holy hell he misses Qi-ge. In anger and betrayal, heâd pushed YQY continuously out of his life, but when faced with certain death the only regret he actually had was bringing Qi-ge down with him. YQY was meant to have survived, and in this world, he did.
So now, after all that, SJ really, really wants to go see his Qi-ge. Itâs nice to have survived (and gotten part of his power backâat the very beginning, SY gives one of SQQâs eyes to SJ as a bit of his golden core in order to save SJâs life), but itâs so damn hard to live on in this world knowing YQY is only so far away, still very deeply attached to Xiao Jiu.
They try to Cyrano it at first. SY-as-SQQ goes to YQY with SJâs voice in his ear, telling SY how to treat YQY as him. YQY is so fucking touched and hopeful, and SY is damn uncomfortable. He goes running back to SJ and says itâs not going to workâitâs not going to work because heâs no longer Qi-geâs Xiao Jiu. Heâs Luo Bingheâs husband, okay? He canât go back to YQY as SJ.
SJâs fucking furious at first (what kind of shitty variation of himself saves LQGâs life and then falls out of love with Qi-ge???? bitch?????) but what can he do? LQG tells them YQYâs on his way here and SJ hides for now. They still donât know what will happen if SJ meets YQY, so SY continues to front as SJ for now.
But during this conversation, something changes. Maybe YQY says something, but SJ realizes heâs actually a little willing to take this chance. If Qi-ge does disappearâeasy, heâd just kill himself right after. Heâd already experienced Qi-geâs death twice before, and at least this time, he can follow, knowing heâs at least reconciled with Qi-ge through SY.
And if he disappears on his own, then at least he knows thereâs a world in which Qi-ge does not die horribly. Thatâs enough for him.
That, however, leaves the very last possibilityâthat SY will disappear. At this point both LQG and LBH have figured this out, and are very, very reluctant to let this be the scenario. They donât see it as two people, they see it as their version of SQQ vs. YQYâs version of SQQ.
So thereâs a little tension, but in the end, SY gets the final choice. As soon as he learns SJ is willing to go see YQY, he chooses that path. He simply owes qijiu too much to deny them the possibility of reconciliation. So despite knowing he might disappear from Binghe and LQGâs life, he makes it happen.
(They should get a very painful goodbye scene.)
SY goes out to explain things. âZhangmen-shixiong may have noticed my change since my qi deviation and the spirit caves.â âIâm happy Xiao Jiu has a brighter outlook on life.â âYes, but I think Qi-ge, of all people, might actually prefer how I was before, right?â âIf Xiao Jiuâs happy, Iâm happy.â âYes, but Shen Jiu wants you. Is that alright?â ââof course. I want Xiao Jiu tooââ
SJ comes out. Everyone holds their breath.
Scene cut.
Itâs said that Cang Qiongâs Sect Leader Yue Qingyuan disappeared suddenly one afternoon...
But jk, YQY just ran away with SJ, theyâre recuperating in the mountains and everybodyâs fine and itâs a happy ending.
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Poor roman :( but that being said I am heka interested in 5
remus humiliates roman in front of jamal (but jamal is a sweetheart)
vote from this concept voting post!
TWs: swearing, emotional humiliation, arguing, remus is generally pretty mean in this - not "unsympathetic" but his behaviour is not ok, brief alcohol mention but it isnt a main feature
first some background info on remus and ro:
roman and remus' friend groups actually run parallel to each other by pure councidence in that theyre the same age and are both in the local queer scene
usually they only run into each other on nights out and avoid each other like the plague... until one of romans friends and one of remus' friends become a very serious couple and the friendship groups merge
remus tends to hang it over romans head whenever they argue or remus just feels like teasing him that he could so so easily spill romans secret littlespace to all his friends
and while roman claims to not care he also really doesnt want that to happen, especially the specific things remus threatens to reveal (namely him calling his cgs mommy and daddy, and his fear of the dark - which remus knows are romans biggest embarrassments)
and remus never USUALLY actually follows through on his threats, he loves to freak roman out but he doesnt mean to be intentionslly cruel.
but one night theyve had an argument recently and remus is out to hurt roman and finally follows through on his threat to reveal romans secrets. in front of jamal
((the actual incident below the cut))
all the friends are walking back from a night out, and remus hangs back from the group to talk to jamal. roman is just glaring at remus and not saying anything and holding jamals hand tightly. remus hasnt embarrassed him too bad so far, just asking jamal questions and referring to roman as his "baby brother" which is so annoying, but the thing is roman can tell hes building up to something
then suddenly remus smirks when he sees a completely pitch black side street thats theyre about to pass by, and he calls out to everyone "hey guys, there's a 24/7 mcdonalds through here and its a shortcut to the bus stop" and everyones like WOO mcdonalds and redirects to go down the side street
and romans heart pounds watching the friends all filter down the street without a second thought, theres no streetlights down there, theres light on the other side quite far away, but before that its SO DARK. and he freezes in place and jamal is tugged back by it and looks back at him. "babe, come on"
romans starting to feel shaky and he literally cant move his feet. his eyes flick between the street and remus' sadistic cocky smirk.
"whats wrong baby bro? you stuck or something?" remus leers with that stupid stupid smirk
and roman HATES him so so much
"ro, what's the matter?" jamal asks
"i- um," roman stutters, trying to keep his voice from shaking too much at the sight of his friends just having DISAPPEARED into the darkness - how are they okay with that?? "i- im not hungry"
"okay well i am, and remus said it was a shortcut anyway so-"
"i-i -- no i can't"
seraphina, romans best friend, looks back and notices whats happening and quickly jogs over (knowing roman is scared of the dark) "hey roma, it's okay we dont have to go down there" she soothes
jamal is supportive but he doesnt get it. he thinks roman is scared of criminals or smth. "i promise theres no one bad down there, hun. and i'll be right next to you the whole time, i'll protect you" and he smiles and tugs romans hand to pull him towards the side street
romans eyes quickly tear up and he panics and rambles "nononono dont please please i cant i cant" in a broken voice and plants his feet firmly on the ground, paralysed with fear
remus starts cackling "ohhhhh thats right~" as if he just remembered. "my baby brother's terrified of the dark, isn't he?"
"f*ck off, re" sera barks, standing between the twins, protective of roman
"wait, are you?" jamal asks sounding surprised. roman doesnt let himself look at him, too busy watching remus warily and knowing thats not all he has planned to embarrass roman
remus goes on, shouting out to jamal over sera's head "he's petrified!" he confirms sounding delighted. "yknow that massive blackout last summer? he cried like a baby. literally sobbing for his daddy patton to make it go away"
theres a brief silence because no, sera and jamal didnt expect remus to refer to patton as romans daddy - they both know roman calls him dad but this is a surprise.
and that one second of silence drags on for ages for roman, all he can hear is his heart pounding in his ears and remus' obnoxious laughter
he is shaking, frozen in shock rather than fear now. for all of remus' teasing threats at home, he didnt expect remus to actually do it. hes devastated and humiliated that remus told to his best friend and especially his BOYFRIEND of all ppl
and honestly he's not even thinking about the pitch black side street right now because the streetlights on the main road are blurred by tears welling in his eyes anyway
"why dont you just leave him alone!" sera hisses furiously after her mild shock
then jamal bounces back rlly stern to remus "yeah i already know about that! roman told me and it was HIS choice to tell me"
roman stares at him in disbelief but jamal is too busy staring daggers at remus to notice
remus looks suddenly offended and frowns. hes clearly hurt that the others dont think its funny "jeez youre both such bores. im just having some fun"
"youre demented if you think thats fun" seraphina growls and shoves remus away towards the sidestreet. remus rolls his eyes and runs ahead to join the others who are all oblivious to that coversation, howling with drunken laughter in the pitch black and jumping out and scaring each other
"f*cking prick" jamal calls after remus, seething
sera quickly throws a concerned look to roman "you okay?"
roman just swallows thickly and looks between seraphina and where he saw remus join the others in the pitch black. his stomach churns at the idea of remus telling more people. "i-is he gonna--"
"im on it" sera nods and starts turning around "i wont let him tell anyone else, roma, promise" then she runs ahead to keep an eye on remus and to give him and jamal some privacy
after a moment jamal turns back to roman looking so worried and holds his hands and asks very gently "babe, can you tell me how youre feeling?"
and roman is teary but he whispers "i - you stuck up for me"
jamal looks suddenly sad and cups romans cheek "of course i did"
"but you said i told you about it. i- i didnt tell you that i-" roman gulps after his voice wobbles "i didnt tell you about it"
and jamal smiles sadly and goes "i know babe... im sorry, i just didnt wanna give him any more power. it seemed like he's held that over you for a while"
suddenly the tears in romans eyes overspill and he doesnt really know why but he can't stop them
jama gasps a little "oh roman, its ok" and just pulls him into a tight hug
roman clings and sniffles, glad that he can hide his tears from his boyfriend even if it is in his neck.
and jamal just strokes his back and whispers "its ok baby, its ok" **
they talk about it quietly as they take the longer, well-lit route instead. roman admits he would never have told jamal abt his fear on his own - and the reason he's been avoiding staying overnight at jamals apartment is bc the one time he did he got so scared of the dark that he couldnt sleep and was just anxious all night but wouldnt wake jamal to tell him
after jamal finds out hes like baby why didnt u tell me its okay and comforts him about it not being embarrassing or childish. then:
"so you do actually want to stay at mine, its just because its so dark that you didnt?"
roman nods shyly "yeah... im sorry i know its a dumb fear i just-"
"its not dumb ro. i meant to say if it works for you, we could leave the hall light on and the door open. its not like i live with anyone who can walk in."
roman blinks "wait you - really? it wont make it hard for you to sleep?"
jamal smiles softly "no hun, honestly i could sleep anywhere. i fell asleep in the middle of the day in the staffroom just last month"
roman laughs, so so so relieved
"so... maybe next time you come over for dinner you could stay the night, yeah?" jamal says with a smile and a blush. he wraps his arm around romans waist and pulls him in, hip to hip
roman bites his lip and blushes. after a moment he suggests shyly "im free tonight..."
and jamal smiles so big, stops walking and puts his arm up to romans chest to stop him too then angles romans jaw down to kiss him
in the near future jamal promises to buy a plain nightlight and always leaves it on for roman when he stays overnight from then on
**side note: roman could never stand anyone calling him baby before because he felt infantilised at school becaus of his undiagnosed adhd. so he sees it as a derogatory name more than anything. but when jamal says it roman feels so warm and respected because he knows jamal would never mean it in that way. so jamal has "baby" rights basically
#swearing tw#little angst#long post#chaotic cousin remus#little/big concepts#asks#tumblebee the smol bean
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9. Most disliked character(s)? Why?
ok so im actually going to give a few answers because i have 3 characters i reallysuper dont like
so lets go:
my most disliked character from a purely canon stance is.... sizz-lorr. i feel like this is a pretty safe choice for Least Liked. like man he was an asshole to zim et cetera, sure zim escaped but idk i just dont like him at All. hes the kind of character i love to hate yaknow, frycook is one of my favorite episodes and i live to just yell at the tv whenever hes onÂ
but ngl the whole âsizz-lorr did nothing wrongâ side of the fandom rubs me the wrong way. like you look me in the eyes and tell me that authoritarian-ass irken empire would be just.... fine with sizz-lorr enacting vigilante justice like that wrt finding zim and borderline torturing him? âits just like any retail jobâ man i remember when my mcdonalds manager made me climb into the ronald mcdonald costume that was filled with grease. standard part of the job!
(and yea they might be fine w the vigilante justice thing bc zim but i feel like theyd still give sizz-lorr SOME sort of punishment because that sort of thing is... generally frowned upon)
so yeah that side of the fandom really pisses me off bc theyre the type that tends to force their headcanons onto others and be The Correct Ones. like let people do whatever goddamn. im not reading ur dissertation on why sizz-lorr is a good guy..... im happy for you. or sorry that happened.
anyway im putting the other 2 under the cut bc then i can nuke the post if controversy happens
other most disliked: ZIB. in the comics heâs.... okay. heâs a cool villain! i liked the reveal! BUT THE FANDOM....... guys, yâknow he was planning to commit multidimensional genocide, right? heâs not an uwu softboi? right? you know this right??? i REALLY like him as the worst traits of zim and dib combined and showing that dib can (literally and figuratively) BECOME zim in the worst possible timeline and im sure a sort of rehabilitation of him could be treated well but idk nobody rly does much w him other than making him a slightly more prickly dib to project on
i feel like its part of the fact that a lot of the fandom is newer fans from florpus where dib is more the good guy and WAY more mellowed out, so they tend to project on him, so when a Meaner Dib shows up they can project on him too while kinda sanding off the edges to make sure theyre not being TOO problematicÂ
(this phenomenon is why theres not much serious tallest stuff i dont think. many tallest fans r antis so they gotta be Nice N Pure so they cant actually do any deep dives bc theyre assholes and Bad Space Dictators so no nuance here! only funny jokes)
anyway my number one disliked character.... that i cant even watch the episode she appears in...
is TAK.
i just.... i just find her so overrated!! i thought id like her better nowadays since i disliked her AND gaz when i was younger but.... i dont??? I REALLY DONT GUYS..... I DONT GET IT!! (fwiw i fucking love gaz now)
her WHOLE schtick is just, Zim, But Better. it gets old REALLY quickly and i always thought her disguise kinda sucked? like, think about it. sure zimâs disguise looks shitty but its at least TANGIBLE. you can just... UR HAND IS GONNA GO THRU A HOLO THINGY!!! WHAT HAPPENS IF SHE HAS TO GO ANYWHERE AT NIGHT? OR IN THE DARK??? WONT IT GLOW?? SINCE ITS A HOLOGRAM???? every time i see her im like MAâAM WHAT IF DIB TOUCHES YOUR HAIR?? HIS HAND IS GONNA GO RIGHT THROUGH!!
also if she was such a brilliant invader she shoulda figured out how to get out of a room.... bet zim wouldve figured it out. sure he wouldve figured it out by blowing the whole building to smithereens but hey.... he figured it out!
and idk i just find her SO OVERRATED by the fandom like shes EEVERYWHERE and it just makes me hate her even more like idk i just donnnnnnnt get it shes NOT THAT COOL she just brooded for 20 years or however long it was until she could get to zim and kick his ass and take his already fake mission?? if she didnt have that hypno thingy she wouldve been toast.
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hhhhhhxh
more abt hxh bc my last post was too long n i had to split it off holla
so i left off talking abt when gon woke up....i love how polite gon is to pretty much everyone - hes such a good lad all the time. s/o to his aunt for raising him right (tho i think hes also just a rlly good boy inherently too)
also is he named gon bc ging was like ha ha im boutta be GONe lol seeya kid!!!! like ????
i find it interesting that kurapika and hisoka fought....we really havent seen them interact at all yet. also hisoka is so smirk-y i hate that bitch...what did he say to kurapika??????Â
this poor red shirt old guy lmao hisoka is SO clearly uninterested in fighting him and then he fucking dies. rip mdude
what did hisoka whisper to HIM??? guess weâll never know #RIPLegend
oh mannnn if killua had just won against pokkle then he wouldnt have had to deal with illumi doing That to him :( my smug son......
leorio is such a good dude....also its so funny to me how tall and lanky leorio is, espec compared to the other 3 main characters lmaoooo
or maybe those 3 are just rlly short??? i mean gon and killua are literally 12, but whats kurapikas excuse
GODDDD I HATE THIS BIIIIITCH. FUCK OFFFFFFF tho the evil piano music slaps. but jeeeeesus illumi is so creepy and awful, and seeing him take off his disguise is not any better a second time...he and hisoka truly deserve each other wrow
does illumi have hair powers??? cause it kinda looks like it. or maybe hes just gay and dramaticÂ
ok but the sick electric guitar riff (?) that played when illumis face was revealed was lowkey kinda hilarious
man i was so wrong abt killua knowing that that was illumi :( poor kid
killua is immediately freaking out and meanwhile illumi looks bored as hell. dude ur the worstÂ
killua: [freaking out] illumi, completely blank-faced: heyÂ
I HATE HIMMMM even tho his catman design is regrettably kinda cute
why do illumi and hisoka both have such snatched waists i hate this
wtf so killua has another different brother??? i assumed he attacked illumi....how many fuckgin zoldyk sibling are there?????
leorio ur too normie for this conversation lmao. also wow fucked up family huh
killua looks so like...small and helpless, which is so at odds from what weâve seen of him so far :( this poor kid
illumi totally has some weird brain powers man callin it nowÂ
gon: wow killuas family sounds wack... satotz: oh lmao you havent even heard the restÂ
KILLUA ;_;Â
this poor baby assassin :( :( :(
IMMM INCONSOLABLE. HE WANTS TO BE FRIENDS W/GON.......ARE YOU KIDDING....AUGHHHHHHHH
meanwhile gon decided he and killua are BEST FRIENDS like 10 mins after they met. GODÂ
like in the recap ep he called killua his best friend ;_; and meanwhile killua doesnt even think they ARE friends god destroy meÂ
this calming classical music is throwing me off vbhjfjhbsdkgndks
i sense that leorio and kurapika are rapidly acquiring a new son
DAMN THIS IS SO FUUUUCKEDDDDD illumi is such a crusty bitch wow. leave killua alone assholeÂ
all that stuff abt killua like, only thinking he wants to befriend gon but really wanting to kill him....that sure sounds like some âworst fearsâ type of shit for someone like killua....illumi is such a classic abuser wow
i have 2 know is satotz like, repeating this entire conversation verbatim in a calming monotone to gon rn. like....
LEORIOOOOO I LOVE UUUUUUUU AUGHHHH him telling killua it doesnt matter if illumi is his brother, fuck that guy, beat him up as usual and leave.....ooooughhhh leorio is such a good dude ;_;Â
and the OF COURSE him saying the obvious - that gon and killua are ALREADY friends....i love this, i feel like leorio said all the exact things the audience is thinking...yet it still didnt get thru to killua bc hes so rattled by illumi appearing, and the abuse in generalÂ
i think if gon were there things wouldve gone much differentlyÂ
of COURSE crusty bitch illumi is like oh ok now i have to kill gon.....biiiiitch i hate uuuuuÂ
also that just shows that hes lying to killua (which we already knew obvs), bc if it were inevitable that killua would kill gon to like, test himself or w/e, then why not just wait for that to happen? that would have a much bigger impact on killua than illumi killing gon....its obvious that illumi is just manipulating him, but killua is too BSOD to be able to tell (also, hes 12)
ok bitch illumi is preaching abt not needing friends but he and hisoka are definitely fucking and theyve been teamed up for the entire hunter exam it seems.....what a hypocrite. hate this guy
god im so glad we didnt rlly get to see whatever the fuck illumi did to that random hunter examiner guyâs face. jeeeeesus. also i cant tell but i wonder if him forcing that info out of the guy was the result of his freaky mind powers or if the guy was just like oof ouch pins in me face
LEORIO AND KURAPIKAAAA THE PROTECT GON SQUAD!! and joined by new member hanzo!!! who ironically beat gon up for 3 hours str8 like, a very short amount of time ago lmao. but still i love that sm
illumi u dumb bitch.....tho i dont buy for a minute that he didnt already realize that killing gon would disqualify him...he defs just wanted to get under killuas skin even more :^(Â
KILLUAAAA ;_; when he goes to step back from illumi but illumi tells him not to....ughhh HATE this guy, leave this poor kid alone. no wonder he wanted to leave
illumi saying theres only 1 way that killua can stop him - does he mean by killing him, or something more specific, like some forbidden zoldyk murder technique?Â
âyour beloved gonâ wow gay. theyre 12 and theyre dating ok. killua is literally that kid whos like wow i wonder if gon likes me...and meanwhile gon is like wow cant believe me and killua have been dating for 3 months now
leorio saying âwe wont let him kill you or gonâ ;_; leorio ily sm...thats like the exact right thing to say - hes offering protection and reassurance as an adult figure...unfortunately killua is clearly too freaked out to even process anything outside of illumis gaslighting and abuseÂ
also illumi is defs doing something to killua w/his eyes via his freaky mind powers. js
illumi i hate you stop being weirdly cute. aughÂ
classic abuse tactics, being like ha ha nvm i wasnt gonna kill gon! jk!
killua just shutting down completely after that :( :( noooo
and then he kills that old guy and leaves, âprovingâ that illumi is right....noooooOOOO
and now we boutta see gon go FULL shounen protag for the first time, oh FUCKKKKKK yesssss
this is the first time weâve seen gon angry oooh man and of COURSE its on killuas behalf,....im so fuckign emo already looooord
god ok the episode preview where its gon saying âdo leorio and i look alike?â YES U DO LOL youre father and son so jot that downÂ
oof, gon and illumi have such fundamentally different POVs on like, family and life and morals, and you can tell by their 4-line exchange before gon does the ICONIC one-handed grabânâfling
AUGHHHH gon saying hes gonna rescue killua....SO good...he recognizes that killuas family is wack as hell and killua shouldnt be w/them - the classic ingrained âfound family is more important than blood familyâ stuff
tho thats an interesting contrast to gon himself, whos looking for his deadbeat dad
âbut it wasnt his choiceâ that so good ily gon BEST boy, hes so perceptive and good......he knows that killuas hand was forced and that he needs to be RESCUED (love that word choice) from his shitty abusive family
of course kurapika and leorio voiced complaints ;_; best parentsÂ
kurapika should be a lawyer tbhÂ
leorioooo ;_; such a good dude, saying he should be disqualified insteadÂ
HOW is leorio a stronger combatant than that old dude hvbajufjbsja that guy had some moves it seemed, and leorio has,....a knife? a briefcase? the classic premed attitude of âfuck it, i could die anytime, lets do thisâ? like.....cmon vhabjdfjbhsf i refuse to believe this man is of any use in a fight. ill believe it when i see it
pokkle pls ur not plot-important enough to be jumping into this convo rn
tho i am curious abt what hisoka said to kurapika. tho i agree that thats irrelevant to the discussionÂ
gon repeating satotzâs wisdom :â) and saying that killua will definitely pass if he takes the exam again...ough
gon is SO GOOD i cant get over it !!!!!!!!! AUGHHHH....recusing killua from his abusive family and making it so killua never has to see them again is like...so good. what a good good perfect boy.
also thats like, the perfect response to this. killing illumi would just start a ton of drama, and killua would be conflicted abt that....but removing killua from his situation is perfectÂ
ok ive ranted a lot ill talk abt the rest later woohoo
PREDICTIONS:Â
i predict that hisoka will show up in this upcoming zoldyk arc somewhere bc illumis gonna be in it (i assume) and theyre dating. also hisoka is a central character so itd make sense for him to show up in the second major arc. tho tbh this could end up being completely false and i wouldnt be that shocked lmao
i think leorio is gonna get Big Sad someday bc hes like, so normal compared to the other MCs, and also hes suuuuch a bleeding heart (i love him....) so i feel like thats gonna lead to some sadness for him once his friends start doing crazy shit or w/eÂ
also i predict that if he gets nen itll be like healing nen or st. does that even exist??? idk jack shit abt nen lmaoÂ
i think that illumi has hypnosis powers or something, even just based on design alone. it could defs be for aesthetic (character design in hxh is wild), but his eyes look noticeably different from any other characters. also he was doing some freaky shit to killua. also i held this prediction before seeing the part where this is brought up so weâll see if its right lmaoÂ
as for this upcoming arc - ruth and i are wondering if itll be similar to the vinsmoke drama in one piece - character goes back to abusive family, squad goes to rescue them...and then character refuses to be recused. w/sanji it was partially bc the vinsmokes threatened to kill zeff, his TRUE dad, but i predict in this case it could be more like the zoldyks saying âlook killua these 3 weirdos showed up looking for you, convince them to leave or weâll kill themâ and killua will be like, oh shit bc like.....think abt it. the vinsmokes targeted zeff (and not the strawhats) bc they knew they could easily kill him. same goes here, i assume - a family of trained assassins vs Good Good Fishing Rod Smell-Power Boy (who hasnt thrown a single punch yet), Lanky Dr Man With A Switchblade We Havent Seen Him Use Onscreen, and Mx 2 Wooden Sticks, Bloodlust, and Arachnophobia - 3 For 1 Deal! its a no-contest. so thats one thing i could see happening, potentiallyÂ
im way too tired to remember my other predictions rip lmao
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and introduction.
meet elijah.
hey guys! im lina! im 18 and im in the cst timezone. im currently a freshman in college and ive also been rping for like 6 years now ( i started on the neopets chat boards. if thats not an embarrassing fun fact idk what is ) but i havent rped since this summer since school was and still is kicking my ass. im really into musical theater, marvel & dc, and disney! i also used to be a lifeguard at a great wolf lodge for 2 years so if u want any funny stories about stupid children, or even just wanna be friends, lmk! im also SUPER sorry this intro is so late. i was gonna do it yesterday but then my friends wanted to hang and it kinda went downhill from there. im actually posting this like 20 min before i have a lab practical so i wont be able to reply until late tonight, but like this post to plot or anything!
some fun facts abt elijah:
he was adopted when he was around 3-4? he was abandoned and left on the back of a merchant cart headed to corona, where he was then discovered and then put into the local orphanage since no one was sure where he came from or who left him. all he had was a stuffed bear (named wooly), a basket of water and fruits to eat, and a letter that explained that:
his name was elijah
he was 2 (born on february 28th)
his parents couldnt care for him, so they hoped he would be found by a kind soul who could either take care of and love him, or else get him to someone who could
they loved him and only left him in the hopes that he would have a better life
he lived in the orphanage for almost 2 years and the few months before the 2nd anniversary of his arrival, rapunzel & eugene visited the orphanage that eugene grew up in and fell in love w/ eli, promptly adopting him soon after. he barely remembers anything about his abandonment and time in the orphanage, but always wanted to find his birth parents and let them know how he turned out. he kept the bear and basket in his room but carries the letter around with him in his wallet wherever he goes.
his full name is elijah frederic fitzherbert. he was given the middle name frederic in honor of his grandfather.
but, he much rather prefers eli. doesnt mind formalities but insists on people who know him to call him by his nickname. except he HATES being called âhighnessâ bc he thinks it sounds stupid. he wont get upset per se if u keep referring to him as âyour highnessâ but he will get annoyed
he very much wants to fulfill his role as âcoronaâs golden boyâ by contributing back to his people. he worries for the kingdom more than he worries for himself and is always trying to prove that he is worthy of being a prince rather than just some random kid who got lucky enough to get adopted. most of his days are spent doing modest favors and helping out the townspeople or visiting the villages surrounding the kingdom.
when heâs in the castle you can almost always find him in the kitchen! boi loves to bake and cook. he loves the way food can bring joy to everyone. he often makes goods to give to the townspeople or the kids at the orphanage, where he volunteers at least every 2 weeks when hes not busy w prince stuff.
has an acute fear of disappointment. he feels so much pressure to prove his worth that came from growing up thinking if he did anything wrong heâd be sent back to orphanage, esp since his parents had another child. they wouldnât want or need him anymore. he mostly got over this when he broke a vase when he was 12 and tried to run away from home, except he fell out the tree that he used to climb out his window and broke his leg lmao. his parents assured him that no matter what he did they would still love him and never abandon him, and his dad also taught him how to climb trees and roofs without dying (much to his momâs chagrin). even tho hes pretty much over it, it kinda lingers subconsciously. thus, he overcompensates in everything he does and gets overly anxious about small problems
growing up he thought the stories that his dad told him about his past were so cool, despite the fact that he would almost always only hear those stories when he was being taught lessons of what he shouldnt do. he used to run around pretending to be flynn rider and his dad played along, planning play heists for them to do together (think scott & cassie in that one scene from ant man and the wasp) but they stopped when eli hit that age where he thought it was embarrassing to play w his dad. but, it really helped him bond w eugene and help him work on his coordination bc eli is CLUMSY AF
eli legit trips over nothing at least twice a day.
he bonded w his mom through art tho, which eventually turned into aesthetic desserts and meals! thats another reason why he loves baking and cooking so much.
when his 1st sibling was born when he was 5 at first he was jealous. he didnt get much attention at the orphanage due to the fact that there were so many kids and he was just starting to get used to the idea of having parents didnt have tons of kids always trying to win their affection and attention. he thought having a little sibling was the worst thing in the world and would hide from his parents bc if they couldnt find him they couldnt send him away. he hated his sibling.
until he met them. the second he saw their chubby face he was hooked. he swore that he would do anything and everything for them. and that continued when his parents adopted his other siblings as well. he absolutely adores them and acts like the protective older bro role
thankfully, with such a large age gap eli never rlly had to go through any of those petty squabbles that siblings usually have. he was always pretty protective of them tho and would fight when he thought they were being reckless and dumb out of his own fear that if they got hurt he would be an awful big brother (again, fear of disappointment)
he loves to travel bc his mom would always take him to these extravagant kingdoms and on these amazing sightseeing trips
this boy is hopeless when it comes to love. i can imagine lots of ppl liking him on top of all the ppl throwing themselves at him bc royal, but him being completely oblivious and thinking that no one likes him.
he had rlly bad ADD as a kid but its gotten better as hes grown. he still occasionally struggles w executive functioning tho and always gets rlly frustrated when he cant focus or remember
like i said earlier, clumsy af. no coordination. the only athletic ability he ever had was horse riding and running
that said he has a horse named may (short for mayonnaise. dont ask
he likes music a lot. prob learned piano at a young age
he probably is at the party bc royals? idk
EDIT: although (currently) unknown to eli, his true birth mother is maleficent. when eli was 2, his birth father took him away from her and had her suppress eliâs natural born powers. his father realized he was unfit to care for him, so he was the one who abandoned eli.
wanted connections!!
obv his parents and siblings? i mean cmon
one ( or both???? ( ͥ° ÍĘ ÍĄÂ°) ) of his birth parents!!!!! they dont have to know that eli is their son or mayb they do and are too scared to tell him, but being trapped together will eventually make it revealed
childhood friends! people he met when he traveled w his mom or met at royal social functions? i rlly also want friends that he would hang w at all the royal galas and stuff and they would go do dumb stuff like look sneak out and look for secret passages of make bets of who could dump more crab cakes into the stuffy duchessâ purse when she wasnt looking
people who know him solely through his family
someone who likes eli and eli legit has no clue, no matter how much they flirt and drop hints
people who hate eli! or even just dislike him, which makes him upset bc he doesnt like the idea that there are ppl who dont like him in the world. mayb bc sometimes he gets super highstrung when things arent going how they should b and he like lashed out at them once or something. maybe they hate his parents and on principle hate him. idk
someone who was w eli in the orphanage
past relationships? i feel like hes never rlly had a bad breakup tho, its just that they prob just didnt work out. hes also bi so they can b any gender. hes still looking for his otp
idk, legit anything. send me those plots man
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Adam is/was Wasted Potential and You Canât Change That Fact
i may or may not make a video about this, but i need to post this somewhere.Â
adam IS wasted potential. the fact that he went from a threatening faunus leader who wanted his version of revolution to a fucking crazy stalker ex boyfriend is BAFFLING. not to be that guy, but i seriously doubt monty wanted adam to be JUST a non-threatening crazy ex boyfriend trope that suddenly stopped caring about the faunus cause. do you realize how many deep plot lines relating to faunus racism we could have had if adam remained a threatening faunus leader? adam was SUPPOSED to be a threat who was ALL ABOUT the faunus revolution. does this mean his ideologies on humans and faunus relations are justified? NO!!! thats the POINT! he was SUPPOSED to be blakeâs antagonist in the fact that he was against her own ideals on fanus-human relations! HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HER OBSTACLE IN FAUNUS RIGHTS, NOT A HALF ASSED EX BOYFRIEND SCORNED ROMANCE PLOT!Â
to reduce adam to just a crazy ex boyfriend and throw away the fact he was all about the faunus mission even after blake left and STILL Deny adam isnt wasted potential? how much delusion can bumblebee shippers be in to sit there and say âadam only existed for bumblebee development!âÂ
in the flashback episode in volume 3, adam says so himself that he doesnt give a fuck that blake left him! the white fang grunt offers to have a search party for blake, but adam says âforget itâ and basically admits he has more important things to deal with! why throw THAT particular scene, which clearly shows us adams mentality and role, then throw it away to force bumblebee in our faces?Â
adam was done SO dirty ever since volume 3 and you crazy bumblebee shippers are gonna sit there and brag when people like me who acknowledge adams potential as an antagonist are suffering from seeing the writers just THROW him away instead of taking up the keyboard and FUCKING FIXING HIM! the writers threw adam away just because they knew they fucked up in changing him from a faunus leader to a fucking ex boyfriend trope! they knew they fucked up beyond repair so the only lazy thing left to do is throw him away so they wont have to think hard about his scenes anymore. itâs fucking bullshit.
not to mention adam got a fucking character short to himself before this volume and yet he only shows up in a big way towards the fucking end of the volume. there was so many ways to include adam and the branding on his face. there was MANY opportunities to show GROWTH in adam when he knows he cant win against blake and yang. but instead of showing adams an actual character, they just use him for blake and yangâs development and then dispose of him, completely ignoring the fact that Monty DID NOT want Adam to end up as a fucking joke like thisÂ
if they just kept adam and blakes relationship strictly platonic and student/mentor, this crazy ex boyfriend bullshit would NOT have taken over. monty even said once they werent supposed to be romantic, but the writers made it seem that way and BOOM, we get a different adam after volume 3. they took the âmy loveâ shit in volume 3 WAY too far.
take out the blake and adam romance. make them enemies on a moral and ideals standpoint. think of how many fucking potential storylines for the faunus we would have had if adam did NOT stalk after blake to kill her or her friends and was instead just a threatening faunus leader whose missions kept getting stopped by RWBY and friends? imagine that each time blake had to stop adams white fang plans and each time they crossed swords, theyâd have deep monologues about faunus rights and the racism they received? how about when we finally got the face reveal, adam continues to fight his ideals against blakeâs ideals and the scene between them would have been way more deep in terms of plot and character development?Â
to kill adam just as we got a smidge of his backstory is also baffling. the fact that cinder--a character with NO clear motivation other than power...a character with ZERO backstory--gets to live and still be nonsense, while adam DIES? itâs baffling! cinder still has chances to be a good antagonist while adam doesnt just bc the writers got LAZY and killed HIM instead of giving him a chance to fix his fucing character!
let me also bring to you that adam showed signs of having BPD. the only way to âexplain awayâ his behavior with blake is that he had BPD. the brand shows a traumatic event in his life, and depending on how young he got the brand, it is his traumatic abusive experience. the reason he was suddenly âabusiveâ to blake is because he was abused by humans and knows NO OTHER way to cope with it, so he just does what he knows onto others. his extreme impulsiveness and rage is explained with BPD as well. the scene with blake in the adam short, where he flips attitudes about blakeâs parents is explained by BPD. the fact that adam reacted and felt this strongly about blake abandoning him is also explained by BPD.Â
so you want to just sit there and say ur âprecious lesbiansâ killed a man with BPD? he was powerless without his sword. blake and yang were going to make it to the pieces of blakeâs weapon before him anyways, so why stab him? could have just held him at blade point. have yang punch him to knock him out, take him to the atlas base and chain him up. leave a note or some shit saying this was adam taurus and have him get arrested. maybe then heâd have a chance of getting help for his BPD symptoms. without his sword, he is powerless. he was essentially gonna lose anyways.Â
POINT IS: ADAM IS 100% WASTED POTENTIAL!!!Â
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hello !!! ive been too shy to send this till now but im thinking that ill be sending an extremely long message to you ! hopefully i won't reveal myself !!! i love you a lot like words can not express how thankful i am to you and to your posts and to your blog and hey it's okay. you don't have to do anything, your existence itself is enough and is good. you are loved greatly, and im so sorry i didn't say anything till now but i love you. greatly. extremely. more than mere words can describe (1/?)
or more than i, myself, can properly ever express ! i love you a lot and you are loved and cherished deeply and greatly. and whatever you decide, ill always support you. i believe that you can kick ass with your criminology course and i believe that you can shatter the very universe and reach the sky, and i firmly believe in this. youâre strong and i love you very much. thank you for your hard work and for making such beautiful content even when you donât have time and is busy. itâs okay (2/?)even if you donât make a lot of content nowadays, itâs okay to take a break. itâs okay to be in a funk. itâs okay to not want to do anything. itâs okay to give yourself some time and just let yourself go. itâs okay. your gifs may not do as well as before, but hey! think about this!! whenever i see your gifs on my dash, i immediately know itâs yours. i think your gifs are these pockets of joy and loveclouds and i genuinely mean this. they are always so pretty and so perfectly timed and (3/?)well-made. like seriously !! they always look so wonderful and idk how your hands can do it. like bless you ! i love you very much. thank you for your constant hard work really! i can not like commend you in ways i want to cause my words is lacking but i really just wanted to tell you that your blog is special. and that i absolutely love you here, but really, you should do what you want. what makes you the happiest. what gives you the most ease and comfort. please always put yourself (4/?)before others ! you deserve it !!! you really do!! anyhow i just wanted to tell you that i love and cherish your greatly and that thank you so much for all that you do. youâre doing well. you have been doing well. and i know that you will continue to do well, so give yourself a little more credit, and be kinder to yourself. youâre a lovely starbeam and i love you very much! thank you once again!! im sorry hah this is REALLY LONG! ill leave with a pickup line! are you French.. CAUSE MADAM! (5/5)
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well firstly, thank u for this very thoughtful and kind message. i did not expect something like this!!
i rly didnt make that post to guilt-trip anyone into messaging me, following me, sending an ask, etc., i just really dont think anyone cares about me or would miss me if i deactivated. friends, sure, but w/friends ive made on here i have added on other social media so i dont think they could really âmissâ me bc they see my dumbass posting mingyu pics on my insta story because of this, i think about doing that a lot lately
i dont really even know why it bothers me so much (my posts underperforming); its just a site. and ive even held myself back from making gifs even though i tell myself âno oneâs giffed it yetâ and i want to gif it,, itâs bc my effort seems futile. it sounds sad but i feel like ââmy timeââ as a content creator here is upâŚyou know? like trends. some people and things just arent it anymore, i guess. ive also really become tired of the internet dramas and inter-fandom dramas. drama is unavoidable online or not but i do find myself being stressed out by things that dont even directly involve me lol. and iâm still into seventeen/still love them btw, this isnt abt them
..maybe part of my change in perspective on this is due to being in college + doing commissions n stuff for spare cash here and there. so one downside to that (or upside depending on how you look at it) i dont really feel like doing loads of free work in exchange for no payment. its such a capricorn thing to say but iâve found that i really like creating youtube videos, and since i can make a profit on thoseâbc my channel finally got approved for monetization :âââ)âmaybe my brain likes the idea of that more lmao (âŚâŚâŚheres my channel btw)
its really nice to hear you like the things i make and thats its also recognizable. i try to make gifs âcurrentâ or whatever but also my own. i create because i have to. its bad for my mental health not to
my blogâs been mostly inactive for the last week and i did notice that i felt a lot better. this week was really goodâin a lot of ways. i still want to make things. i unfollowed tags and stuff so i wont even check if somethings been giffed. iâll just do it, i think. im hoping if i change things i can still be on here and enjoy it.
thank u for all the kind words, this is really encouraging + comforting. i hope this response was adequate..and i also hope you had a nice week. i still want to try because of people like u đily đ
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